my shopping trip ;)

my leg hurts....but im happy :)..... just came back from singapore...(but im still at JB)....its christmas sale.....walaupun takdeler sale sangat kat sana......went there with my parents, sisters and wani's bf.....cari-cari barang for my kyra....First stop...at centrepoint, singapore....bought few clothes at Mothercare and mark and spencer....same price....but different design.....(i thought im the only one yang excited.....mama and ayah pun sama...diorang pun beli for their cucu...)

Then, after round-round at centrepoint...still tak puas hati..our next stop...is at Takashimaya(actually its my mom favourite shopping mall)....my mom,ayah and adik....berpisah with me, wani and raedi....mama cari bag at her favourite shop LV, PRADA,FENDI and COACH...while i went to kids floor...cari baju for kyra..excited sangat-sangat sampai tak nak tunggu mama..heheheheh!! biler sampai jek at kid's floor....hanin dah jadi rambang mata....baby guess,baby burberry, baby ralph lauren....baby armani...yeps...you name it.....semua ada kat situ...and cute-cute lak tu....dah ler 70% sale..hahah!! tp if converted to malaysian ringgit...menangis ler daddy kyra...after few minutes talk on the phone with my hubby...(pujuk-pujuk gak ler...) at last i get to buy for my baby....me and my sisters jadi rambang mata pilih for kyra...biler mama datang...lagiler giler...hahahah!! biler tengok price....hanin rasa tak nak beli jek...tapi mama kata beli...(yups!! sebenarnya my mom yang seronok shopping)...beli lagi few clothes...(rasa-rasanya dah dekat 20 pasang...more than that i think!!!hahaha)

after penat shopping for my kyra......it's shopping time for my sisters and me.....my sisters yang excited than me....hanin dah penat...so, beli skit jek....i bought 4 pasang kasut and few maternity clothes sebab im more excited for my kyra....heheheh!! went to singapore for few days.....memang nak shopping lagi....tp after this...ada tempat lain lak..nak cari baju kyra.....heheh! outside KL not singapore....kat mana? tunggu....secret.....:P

sigh! tak sabar my baby pakai baju mommy dier beli......opps! and granparents dier beli skali :P

Do i love him???

Do i love En Farshid????of course...i love him soooooooo much!!!

 should i cry? should i tell him not to work?? of course not........i know he works for us and our lil baby inside my tummy....I will not show to the world i'm crying of missing him....i'm crying because he will be leaving me for 5 months....NOPE!!! Only he knows how much i love him and miss him....i must be strong for our lil baby....mesti Kyra nak tengok mommy dier kuat.....Tak nak gedik-gedik biler daddy takde... lagipun im happy i have him.....i have my family and friends who is always there for me....lagipun bukannya my hubby tak call me..he will always try to call me...he will always try his best to find lines to talk to me....he will always support me through my pregnancy time with his supportive message.....( i'm praying to God hope he will be there for me when i give birth our lil kyra)

Yes!! people see i'm happy all the time...i'm having a good time.....i'm laughing....but they don't know how i feel deep inside my heart....i want our kyra to know that mommy is strong....Mommy is happy with her....eventhough i miss him...i know that's what he wants....to be supportive for him...

thanks B....for giving this child inside my tummy....who is always there for me and accompany me when i'm lonely....Honey janji will always takes care of our kyra.... :)

B, Long distance relationships require a special willingness and understanding that can test love like no other type of relationship can. It requires constant communication and a desire to continually create your relationship, using the only real tool you have... your words.

Thinking of you today what great joy you bring,

You're so beautiful like a fresh Tulip in spring.

Oh What warmth you bring my heart,

Miss you so much when we are apart.

 

I think of you every night and day,

Would like to be with you now if there was a way!

Oh how my heart aches when I cannot see you,

Tears roll down my cheeks like morning dew.

 

Winter has passed and spring has arrived,

Two months of your LOVE have I been deprived.

Missing your presence in every way,

I LOVE YOU so much what more can I say.

 

Though these days our eyes do not meet,

Thinking of you still makes my heart beat.

Far you may be like a lost fallen feather,

But close are our heats will always be together.

 

Times are hard now but soon it will pass,

Then I will be able to see you again at last.

Everything then will be as smooth as butter,

You and I will have our "Happily ever after!"

Jalan-jalan cari baju Kyra!!

Bangun tido jek.....Hanin rasa excited sangat....kejutkan my small sis,wani....

me : Wani....teman kak nin gi curve....nak tengok baju baby...

wani: alah...kak nin....kan semalam baru beli baju...nak beli lagi?

   macam everyday beli jek...

kan kiter nak gi singapore nanti...shopping ler kat sana....

me :   PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

At last i can pujuk my baby sis gi the curve...tapi kena bribe ler....heheheh!! shopping untuk dier....takpelah....asalkan dier teman....i don't know why...hanin giler sangat tengok baju baby....rasa happy biler beli :) lagipun Daddy kyra dah approve mommy leh shopping untuk anak dier....Lagipun sekarang musim SALE!!! lagiler mommy dier jadi giler shopping..hehehe!!

Daddy kyra cakap.." mommy beli cute-cute clothes for kyra, k! I know she's gonna look cute...Love u...." (sigh!! kyra's happily kicking in my tummy...sebut jek nama daddy dier...mesti tendang...u miss your daddy eh?)

Sampai-sampai jek at the curve...cari makan dulu...heheh!! makan at Paddington house of pancake....favourite lil baby in my tummy....mesti rasa nak makan tu jek....kena makan..utk bagi tenaga shopping...heheheh!!

after makan....terus gi tengok baju baby..hehehe!! hanin jadi rambang mata.....masuk mothercare....masuk oshkosh bgosh...masuk lil'miss and mr (baju hallmark)...nasib baik auntie dier tolong choosekan baju yang cute2.....banyak gak beli baju......habis $$$$ gak...takpe asalkan hanin happy and puas hati :) biarler orang nak kata hanin manjakan baby hanin...hanin tak peduli....i just want her to be loved....

Tadaaaaa!! baju shopping for today...heheheh!! tak termasuk lagi semalam beli...two days ago beli....beli dulu-dulu kat singapore..garden midvalley,sunway pyramid, OU semua.....heheheh!! baju yang lain-lain tu....simpan :P Daddy dier balik mesti pengsan.."Jangan risau sayang...banyak orang sponsor baju baby kiter..." banyak sangat beli sampai tak muat almari :P biasaler 1st child and cucu...

COMELKAN!!! sigh!! seronok sangat-sangat Hanin dapat beli for my lil baby....bila beli jek...Kyra mesti kick perut mommy dier..mesti dier excited tengok mommy dier shopping untuk dier....tak tauler biler dier kuar nanti ;) macam one baju yang hanin beli, tulis..."My mummy rocks.." Kyra mesti setujukan???

hmm....balik jek dari the curve...hanin still tak puas hati....hmm...esok nak gi mana lak? 

cukup-cukuplah hanin....next week nak gi Singapore lagi :P

Mommy janji Kyra...Daddy and mommy gonna give you the best...We love you soooo much!!

Ps: thank you God for giving me this baby....

its shopping time...for lil Kyra

helloooooooo.....lamanya tak update blog niekan?...sowi...busy sesangat....busy jumpa hubby (masa time hubby dry dock kat pasir gudang) busy jalan-jalan and busy shopping for our lil kyra... :) seronok tengok baju baby cute2....geram sangat-sangat.....dahler malaysia and singapore sale...lagiler giler mommy, grandma and auntie dier shopping...heheheheh!

niepun baru balik shopping from the curve, garden and sunway pyramid....geram sangat tengok baju baby kat baby Guess, Baby gaps, oshkosh, la senza and mothercare..heheheh! adaler beli skit2....tak sabar tengok kyra pakai baju.....nasib baik i got two helpful sisters yg giler shopping gak...hahahah! sekarang nie my hubby bagi shopping baju jek....all those stroller, tempat tido baby semua kena tunggu dier balik...."B....honey dah tgk barang kat the curve...comel ler B...." eeeee....tak sabar my hubby balik.... ;) banyak gak habis duit for our lil kyra....tapi takpe...asalkan kyra happy..hehehehh!! hanin pun happy shopping.... sian daddy dier atas kapal..jeles mommy shopping. takpe sayang...nanti sayang balik...kiter gi shopping sama-sama eh!

this 24th nak gi singapore lak.....hehehe!! tengok baju baby kat sana :P grandma dier suka gi sana...dier kata fashion sana lain....okler mama...hanin ikut jek...then, klu takde pape...we are off to jakarta..excited sgt...1st baby and 1st cucu.....sampai sakit kaki dah nie....

sejak akhir-akhir nie...hanin suka makan western food...kyra nie makan ikut taste daddy dier....now asik nak makan pancake jek...Yum! Yum! rindu Paddington of pancake house kat the curve....tengok....sebut jek pancake...kyra dah tendang-tendang perut mommy...nanti eh sayang....kiter gi this weekend....happy sangat rasa baby tendang perut...biler mommy dier cakap fon with daddy dier...lagi ler dier active tendang perut...hehehe! excited eh..sayang!! lagi tiga bulan jek daddy nak balik sayang......daddy pun selalu suh mommy pesan kat kyra...."Daddy loves u soooooooo much! he can't wait to hold and hug you...he will give the best for you :) "

eeee...B..lagi 4 bulan jek our baby nak kuar...honey excited sangat......this is the greatest feeling i have....thank u B....for this beautiful baby and great life....i am sooooo happy!! mommy tak sabar nak tengok kyra dalam 3D/4D scan.....nak tengok apa kyra buat dalam perut mommy :)

thank you sayang.....

Today Sunday....sepatutnya dah gi johor...tapi mama ada wedding anak MB johor...mama balik today...so, hanin gi esok jelah... :) papepun..my hubby sampai pasir gudang this 12th november....sempat lagi jumpa.... tgh excited nie :p

semalam until this early morning...my hubby called me banyak-banyak kali....(hahahha..entah berapa ler bil maxis....tunggu je lah...) to remind me bawa shirt banyak-banyak...nanti nak gi dating (oh!our first year anniversary this 17th november..baby dalam perut nie celebrate ngan mommy and daddy dier :P)...and bawa dvd CSI:Miami...nak tengok atas kapal...

last friday gi sunway medical centre....check baby dalam perut nie....ingat nak tengok dier girl or boy...tapi tak nampak....My baby tengah sujud...hehehehhe!! "alim anak mommy, eh?" maybe tengah bersyukur nak jumpa daddy dier....dier pun excited...Grandma(my mama) and moyang dier pun excited tengok...sampai mama cakap..."active anak hanin...macam farshid...."pape jelah mama :) dier ikut hanin or farshid..asalkan baby dalam perut nie sihat....memang this baby active...seronok tengok..jap lompat-lompat(maybe main basketball macam daddy dier)...jap duduk....jap tidur mengiring....jap sujud...alhamdulillah....my baby happy dalam perut mommy dier...

biler cerita kat daddy dier...excited daddy dier...."dier tengah seronok tu nak jumpa b...." eleh! perasan :P memang betul pun....makin dekat hari...i can feel my baby makin active...tak sabar-sabar nak tengok kapal daddy eh? heheheh...

lagi satu topic terhangat perbincangan me and my hubby dalam fon..."SHOULD I STOP WORKING?" my B asked me to stop because of my health ( sepanjang pregnant..i have a very bad morning sickness)....and dier nak hanin jaga baby betul-betul.....and kalau boleh ikut dier naik kapal biler baby dah besar....he wants me to be by his side....ok...B..after dah fikir betul-betul....honey nak berenti...next week nak bagi surat berenti....i want to besarkan baby...and be by your side...maybe one day...ada rezeki...honey bukak tadika...kan sayang??

when i told him my decision...he's happy with it..." B happy if Honey happy...B promise to takes care of u...so, jangan fikir yang bukan-bukan...will give plenty of love..comfort life for u and baby..then bring out the best out of u...thanks for everything..love u soooo much....B pun nak jumpa honey and baby, tell baby...daddy sayang sangat kat dier...both of u always be in my heart...will talk to baby in tummy....miss both of u"

Sigh!! im crying...alhamdulillah..hanin bersyukur kepada Allah...for giving me the greatest hubby...biler dah habis cakap fon...he will give me plenty of messages sampai takde line...thanks sayang...pagi-pagi kul 6am pun call balik biler ada line sekejap...just to say he loves me...and misses me sooo much....yups!! he's romantic...hanin naik kapal dulu..kawan-kawan atas kapal panggil my hubby antenna...hahaha!! he's good at finding line....always try to cari line to talk to me...they asked me " apa ko buat sampai dier asik nak call ko jek?..dah kawin pun sama jek" hehehe...bangga hanin....i just give my trust and love to him...thats all..i know he loves me as much as i love him (or more..:) )

My favourite msg from him that makes me smile in my sleep : Jangan risau sayang...B expert in finding line, will always call u, so honey comfort, can sleep in peace,have very gud nite, sweet dream...i will always think of u..thinking of u bring happiness..tears do come down, waiting for the day to meet u, will love u forever...do take care...love u sooo much!!"

"yes!!" his messages buat hanin kuat....i can accept his work.....apa yang penting...i'm always in his heart eventhough he's not here with me....Tak semestinya long distance relationship tak bahagia...kena ada depan mata hari-hari...Abby and Norman dua-dua atas darat pun ada dugaan...yang penting sekali....TRUST !! i trust Allah and i trust my hubby :)

alhamdulillah..when he's not here with me...i got my family and friends who is always there for me..thanks korang...oh! to my hubby.."happy anniversary B..." i love u sooooo much....muahx!!

im going to Johor.....yay!!

YAY!!!.....tengah happy sgt2......cant wait this sunday...ikut mama and ayah gi johor.....12th november my hubby sampai pasir gudang.......me and baby miss him soooo much.....he called me byk2 kali from japan....ingatkan hanin suh gi johor...nak tgk my tummy..heheheh!!

Untung maxis....dier naik jek kapal..bil mesti banyak.....i dont care...yg penting he called me.....i just want tu hear his voice....kononnya...sebelum naik kapal....nak save....tapi tak boleh gak....heheheh!! we miss each other...lagipun banyak benda hanin nak cerita kat dier....love talking to him..... :) maxis patut bagi kitorg reward kan??? :P

hmmm..my hubby macam jeles jek, bini dier asik jalan-jalan....sampai dier kata "U macam happy jek i takde.." heheheh!! takdelah sayang...of course i miss u soooooo much...kalau honey duduk umah jek..nanti jadi emo lak...sian adik kena layan honey....lagipun honey tak jalan mana-mana...saturday and sunday...spend time ngan adik and wani....gi tengok wayang...makan-makan..parents takde...enjoyler.... sampai mama pesan.."Hanin..hanin tu pregnant..ingat2 skit... " of course hanin ingat mama....sekali-sekala apa salahnya kan? lagipun sambil-sambil kuar....leh tangok baju baby...eeee!! tak sabar nak gi Singapore shopping baju baby....heheh! tengah pujuk ayah nie....

tu gambar masa time raya... two years ago with my great family and tok mama....time tu kurus lagik...hahahah! nie ler supporters hanin yang always bagi hanin kuat biler farshid takde..thanks!

Then, last Monday....kuar with Aisha, Sar and Fiza....lama x kuar with them....seronok borak-borak....lama tak jumpa...semua happy with life masing-masing..(congrats to my bestest fren, Aisha..i'm happy for you).....mama asik call banyak-banyak kali pesan...jangan balik lambat.. Rasa macam single lak....i'm happy to have a mom like that...caring sangat-sangat...

haaa.ni gambar us dulu-dulu.....aisha yang belah kiri...she's also my pengapit....

miss lepak-lepak macam dulu....tapi sekarang x boleh dah.....dah penat...hahahhahah!! tak larat nak jalan-jalan..maybe dah makin gemuk kot :P kalau hanin cakap jek kat hubby hanin..mesti dier kata.."tak sayang.......you makin comel jek..." pandai eh..you sayang..suka amik hati i...nie yang i sayang kat you.... (jap...korang tengok eh..gambar hanin pregnant..bulat sangat2.betul tak hanin dah makin comel?)

thank u to all my frens...hanin jadik kuat because of you all....thanks for your support.....sedih memang sedih..lonely memang lonely without my hubby...tapi i am happy with my life to have a great hubby....great family and great friends...muahs!!!

Bye...bye

Bye!! Bye!! Fly (or the real name Fazli)......he's the guy in black shirt..yang putih-putih tu...he's my second sis's fiance(adik yang pakai baju putih).....dah seminggu Fly ke Dubai...he's working as a chef there...dier akan pergi for 2 years....balik-balik jek diorg kawin....

Ayah and mama slalu usik me and adik...." pandai anak ayah cari orang-orang yang jauh....hehehehe!!" Yelah!! satu chef kat Dubai.....satu engineer Misc selalu belayar.....tak tau ler our last sister nak cari orang macam mana....tp sekarang dier couple with this one nice guy studying as automotive engineering...dier belajar utk jadi engineer utk kereta lumba like F1...hahaha!! merantau gak ler....

Now, tinggal me and my second sis (with our maid) jek kat umah....my parents kat johor.....yg kecik belajar kat Pahang....alhamdulillah...both of us kuat...hahahah!! tapi klu masuk bilik memasing..menangis gak ler...hahahahahah!! thats why both of us sleep together....

sigh!! miss the old days....masa time kecik-kecik, before kawin....selalu lepak sama-sama, main sama-sama, shopping sama-sama ( ayah selalu bagi me and my sisters tido at cititel midvalley, utk shopping....dier malas bawa us shopping...hahahah!), and of course gossiping....


Now!! me and my sisters makin rapat...maybe ayah and mama jauh....and laki kitorang takde...bolehler....kitorg gossip-gossip macam dulu...

eventhough, we look happy from the outside...but deep inside our heart...only God knows thats we really...really miss our guy :(

Can't wait....

Ha! Ha! Ha! Love that pic.....thanks ecah.....Ecah amik biler Hanin tgh pegang baby nie kat open house Dina Padi....yups...that's the preggy me...Hanin dah naik berat badan dah..im fat!! im 75.5kg....Huhuhu!!! Tapi my hubby selalu cakap...."xpe sayang....you are not fat....you are just pregnant...."

hmmm..pandai dier pujuk....tapi jeles gak tengok org yang kurus-kurus...takpe..nasib baik Hanin tinggi..so, tak nampak sangat hanin dah gemuk :P

No matter what!! I'm proud of my body....yups....i'm happy with it...biarler hanin gemuk..asalkan my baby sihat :) Tapi ada yang kata perut tak nampak lagi...ada yang kata Hanin gemuk...Ada yang kata tembam tapi body ok lagi....entahler....

Farshid nak our baby chubby..heheheh!!! Tengokler nanti....dier ikut chubby mommy dier ke or daddy dier..hahahah!! can't wait...YUPS!! IM SOOOO EXCITED....

Tak sabar tgk muka baby Hanin nanti....next month Hanin dah boleh buat 3D scan...heheheh!!

Kalau ada line jek...my hubby will call me...selalu pesan...."mommy, take a good care of yourself and the baby tau...Daddy is not there for you....Nanti you dah gi buat 3D scan....hantar CD eh?? Daddy nak tengok muka baby kiter"..He's always the same loving and caring husband eventhough dier jauh kat tengah laut...(YA! Allah...rindunya kat my hubby :( )

Apa yang penting sekarang...Hanin nak jaga betul-betul baby hanin sampai dier lahir...Biar daddy dier sambut dier and azankan dier biler daddy dier balik...can't wait for that moment :) x sabar tunggu bulan April 2009....

My Hubby the marine engineer

Dah pukul 1.41am.....damn.....I can't sleep...Biasaler..just 2 days he left me for work..(kerja tau...bukan enjoy..) Baby dalam tummy pun dah meragam..hehehe!! U miss your daddy eh? Yelah...daddy dier ler malam-malam akan usap perut mommy and cakap-cakap with baby dalam tummy..Sigh!!! miss those time sayang....(Mommy..please be strong for your baby).

Every now and then, i will always talk to my baby sambil usap-usap perut..."Baby, Daddy gi kerja....U must understand his work style...he's a seafarer...selalu takde lama-lama...We must support him...." I just want my baby to understand his daddy work style...Nanti takdeler biler dier dah besar merajuk suh daddy dier berenti kerja..Nope!!! i don't want that....

No matter what, i will always support my hubby no matter what he does...He's happy with his work...dier kata semua free...hahaha!! klu kerja darat nanti....food nak kena bayar...tol...minyak keta...parking lot....bla! bla! bla!..like my dad told me...."kerja darat..gaji rm10k pun x cukup.."Betul cakap ayah....he and mama the best advisor...biasaler..orang ada pengalaman...Ayah dah lama kerja bank....Tak boleh tipu dier pasal duit...hahahah!! Mama HR senior vice precident...so, if my hubby kata jek nak tukar kerja..dier akan bagi macam-macam nasihat suruh bersabar...and she will tell him the reason why?? Alhamdulillah..nasihat mama betul (Now, farshid dah pass second class..harap-harap cita-cita dier tercapai nak jadi chief engineer before the age of 30)...Ayah pun sama..if nak beli keta ke...or rumah....he will give us nasihat...macam rumah..okay tak rumah tu..pemaju dier nak bangkrap ke tak..hehehe!! seronok dengar ayah membebel...

My B plak....dah five years dier kerja as marine engineer at MISC....He loves his job sooo much!! I'm happy for him :) he always ask me "Honey....honey ok tak B kerja kapal???" of course sayang..i'm ok..Hanin dah biasa sebab mama and ayah pun busy kerja..so, B x payah risau eh??I won't ask u to stop..mama dah bagi brainwash kat honey....she told me you got a good job...tak payah nak berenti...kerja darat tak selamat....if they nak buang you....they will....gaji sentiasa tak cukup atas darat...then you must pay income tax...banyak akan menganggur biler ekonomi teruk...contohnya like 1997 (orang kata 2009 next year...ekonomi teruk...entahler)..so, she said that i should be thankful you have a good job...Mama selalu interview banyak orang..so, dier kata you are so lucky...to have a good job and a good pay...Lagipun B permanent staff...klu darat, you kerja contract jek.

B, Honey memang rindu B :(

Tapi Honey tak boleh layan mengada-ngada honey rite? B kerja for our future and our baby....Honey akan sentiasa sokong B...I will always pray you berjaya dalam hidup you..I do love you...You will always be in my heart...

lagipun B nak kumpul duit for our future home, future MPV, anak kiter nak masuk private school, universiti...and anak kiter nak kawin..Honey akan sentiasa disisi B..Honey janji...

B, You are the greatest husband in the whole wide world...always make me happy...B jangan risau...i'll try my best to control my emotion just for you..Honey nak B happy kerja...tak mau risau-risau pasal honey...

Sigh!! miss you and love you..do work hard sayang....and remember me always...

eee...sakitnya belakang..kan best B ada....lapar lak..hmm....nak order Mc donald x?

Pusing Kanan..Pusing Kiri..

I miss my hubby....sampai Hanin tak boleh tido semalam.....entah ler...is it the baby or me? selalunya hanin tak macam ni....i'm ok if dier pergi belayar...i will always support him no matter what he does....Maybe i felt lonely semalam....selalunya pukul 1.00-3.00am....Hanin akan dapat my morning sickness...sakit belakang, muntah-muntah, pening kepala, demam, sakit perut...ngan macam-macam lagi...sigh!! miss him soooo much!! he's the one yang akan melayan my perangai mengada-ngada...dier akan urut belakang...hug me from the back...bawa gi makan...and my favourite, he will kiss my tummy and talked to our baby inside the tummy...dier akan cakap to our baby..."Baby..daddy loves you soooooo much...Nanti Daddy nak pergi kerja, takes care of mommy....jangan bagi mommy sakit....and please be strong for us..." I miss the way he talked to my tummy if i felt sick....*crying....*



sigh!! i'm crying again....Hanin kena pujuk diri Hanin and the baby to be strong..."Baby,now..it's just the two of us....we must support daddy...biar dier happy kerja...tak mau sedih-sedih...we need to be strong for him..."



Hanin tak boleh emotional..must take care of my baby and my kesihatan...Hanin dah janji ngan hubby Hanin..."Honey...jaga baby for me....don't cry...u must be strong for me and the baby..this is what we want..."



Yes!!! This is what we want.. kan sayang?? our baby inside my tummy...We are sooo happy when the doctor told me i'm pregnant 5 weeks...Hanin betul-betul terkejut....sampai Hanin tak cakap apa-apa..kenapa???



Sebelum Kawin lagi Hanin dah pesan kat hubby Hanin...."B, maybe kiter susah dapat baby....sebab Honey ada banyak operation...." Hanin ada 3 operation...2 on my kidney (i was born with one kidney ) and one kat ovary...tapi dier tak pernah buat Hanin rasa down....he always tell me...."InsyaAllah....If Allah nak bagi..dier akan bagi...no matter what..i will always love you" Thank you Allah for granting our wish....and thank you sayang for being there for me. you are the greatest husband in the whole wide world..



2 minggu after our wedding reception...my hubby naik kapal...Hanin akan berusaha sementara dier takde....Hanin jumpa 3 orang pakar....if orang tu cakap tu..Hanin buat...Macam minum air apa entah...pakai pad herbal....macam-macam lagilah....just to make sure i'm okay...tak salah berusahakan? Lagipun Hanin nak naik kapal...spend time with him atas kapal...Hanin always trust in myself....InsyaAllah maybe dapat rezeki atas kapalkan?



27th May 2008...i joined him onboard....2 weeks Hanin manja-manja with him...Tapi Hanin takde rezeki atas kapal...entahler...satu malam Jumaat...i had this one weird dream...Hanin mimpi Hanin dapat baby...i was holding the baby....Hanin terjaga je dari tidur...Hanin menangis....it was soooo real....My hubby hug me(as always..) and said "shhhh...jangan menangis....satu hari honey...insyaAllah kiter akan dapat baby...Trust Allah...kiter jangan give up...) Okay.....i know Allah is there for us...we will never give up...



Balik je dari kapal..my hubby hadiahkan me percutian to Bali....just to release my tension...we went to bali on 4th of July...i'm having sooooo much fun there....Hanin betul-betul tak tension kat sana....One day...our tourist guide bawa us to this one place kat Uluwatu...dier macam ada satu kolam kat sana..suddenly..ada pakcik nie cakap at me.."Nak..cuba pegang air tu...selalunya perempuan yang pegang air tu..dapat anak..." (cuba tengok gambar atas)...really??Hanin macam tak percaya...Hanin pun pegang untuk suka-suka nak amik gambar...but in my heart, i really pray to Allah....I trust Allah more...





we spent time in Bali for 3 days...I'm sooo happy...thanks sayang...dalam sebulan lepas Hanin balik dari bali....Hanin rasa tak sedap badan....Tapi Hanin buat tak tau...sebab before this Hanin selalu mengharap....tak datang period jek, Hanin check..tapi semuanya negative...Hanin selalu menangis...farshid always pujuk me...mama pun pujuk kata jangan mengharap sangat... Hanin teman Farshid gi oral test for second class pun (alhamdulillah..he pass his test)..Hanin masih rasa tak sihat and demam-demam...sampai one day...while Farshid was attending kursus kat Melaka (for second class)...tok mama paksa Hanin pergi klinik for check up...I was so shocked when the doktor told me i'm 5 weeks pregnant...Hanin betul-betul tergamam....sampai Hanin jumpa 3 doktor....hahahah!! sebab macam tak percaya cita-cita hanin tercapai...Thank You Allah...I told Farshid this good news on the phone...my hubby happy sangat-sangat....Hanin tau dier menangis..dier tak nak mengaku :)



Dier balik jek dari Melaka..Hanin gi Sunway Medical Centre...I was admitted for 3 days...just to make sure me and the baby okay...He's always there for me..taking care of me at the hospital...The doctor told me..my kidney okay...takde apa-apa masalah and i can proceed with my pregnancy...my baby is a very healthy baby...



Now, i'm a happy four months pregnant mom..hehehe!! Hanin asik sakit-sakit..tapi Baby hanin sihat...i'm soooo happy to see my baby active inside my tummy...Eventhough my hubby is not here with me....Hanin akan jaga baby ni dalam perut betul-betul...I know Allah is there for us...so, i must be strong...



crying again (tears of happiness) Thank You Sooooo Much Allah! (banyak kali dah hanin cakap nie) for everything....i am soooo happy with my life.. (especially im gonna be a mom next year..)



"B...kerja kuat-kuat tau....I will always pray that u come back to me safely...baby and mommy akan tunggu daddy balik..Love u soooo much!!! ".... :)


P/S: 2 Months after pregnant..Hanin mimpi lagi...A name for our baby...heheheh!! secret!

why we love each other

Hanin:why i chose him?
1) i know he’s the one for me….when i met him on 22nd May 2006,my heart felt that he was my dream man…which i knew i’m gonna spend the rest of my life with….
2) he is so caring…loveable,hugable,sweet person….always being there for me when i need him…
3) he is romantic….always pamper me….hug me when i needed a person to comfort me….write romantic letters when he is away….it really cheer up my day after reading it…
4) he is not like other man…he is matured…always think about our future…work hard for our future…like to spend time with me….
5) he is my soulmate…when i first set my eyes on him…he could always take care of me….no matter what…he will always stand by my side…
6) he is well educated….with so many ideas and knowledge…
7) my family love him for what he is….they are very supportive and have done a lot for us….thanks everyone…

Farshid:Why I chose her?…..
1) i felt in love with her after we met for the first time…just had that special feelings…that make me envy her for the rest of my life…my dear honey….
2) she is very kind…loyal….caring….always being there for me when i’m down….she fulfills my needs….
3) she is beautiful….her beauty bring the light out of me…she knows how to dress up…to make me fall in love with her again….she is gorgeous
4) she is very friendly…knows everything about me….make me feels so comfortable when i’m around her….
5) everytime when i’m with her….feel so kinky…hehe….aarrrggghhh…thats why we are married….
6) she is so manja….like to pamper her…like how the way she reacts around me…
7) can’t wait to have babies with her…because she is going to be wonderful mother….i have faith in her…

About us

Sigh.....xde yg special about us pun....im bored and lonely and miss my hubby sooooooo much...(I must be strong for u and our baby..i janji sayang) today....28th October 2008....at 11.30am...i hantar my hubby to KLIA...kena kerja..biasaler org kerja kapal...termenangis lah jugak...maybe penangan baby kot...teremotional lebih.. :) my hubby dah pesan "Honey...jgn sedih2...sian our baby.."

Ok sayang....will be strong for u. i janji.....lagipun next year ada org baru dlm hidup kiter...u balik2 jek terus u jadi daddy and i jadi mommy....can't wait....ntahler....either gal or boy yang kuar..apa2 pun yang penting my baby sihat....Thank U Allah for everything....apa yang Hanin wish...alhamdulillah semua tercapai..A good, loving and caring husband (thats u sayang...), our lil baby( walaupun hanin was born with one kidney and pernah buat operation cyst ovary..doktor kata hanin susah lahir tapi Allah maha Berkuasa...)...and lovely life....

Thanks reen, ecah, huda and to all my friends out there for being there for me....you gals the greatest.... :)

Pagi-pagi lagi reen dah msg....thanks reen.....biler bayar hutang kat bank pun Ecah call..."Hah!! nangis tak?" she asked me....Dina pun ada mention me in her blog "Tak mau sedih-sedih..." hahahah!! thanks korang....of course ler menangis....tapi i'm okay...hanin tau my hubby gi belayar for a good reason....lagipun dier kena kerja for our future and our baby....no matter what sayang.....i will always support u :)

at least Farshid x risau biler dier tinggal hanin sorang-sorang....(i still miss u B!!! honey janji will always talk good things about u to our baby...oh!! mama suh potong rambut biler u balik...heheheh!!)

Takpe sayang...12th November nanti....biler you dry dock kat Pasir Gudang i gi melawat you....for the whole three weeks..nasib baik mama dah kerja kat johor..yay!!! can't wait to see you...and mesti perut i dah besar biler jumpa you :P

"B, honey nak buat 3D scan eh??? nak tengok our baby sihat tak and ikut muka sapa..if not honey tak leh tido malam asik teringat jek..."

Opps....my hp dah berbunyi..

okler nak gi....my hubby call..Yay!! tata...