What I Love about You

B...tomorrow gonna be 1st of May.....sigh!! kenapa cepat sangat masuk bulan May? :( just few weeks B nak naik kapal...You will sail for few months...Ya Allah...let me be strong for Kyra....Let US be strong for HIM....

B, you are my heart and soul...I know the miles between us are great. But our love will keep us near to each other....you will always be deep inside our heart....no matter how far you'll be gone...i know you will come back to us one day... I trust you for that,B....You are my Love and will forever be my love..

What I Love about you?

everything B...

you are

the greatest friend!





the greatest husband!

the greatest daddy!





and the greatest lover ;)







susah honey nak describe with words...only my heart tells how much i really love u..*crying*

when you are not with me...you are the only one i'm thinking of...

I can't believe that we're married!!! and a mom and dad to our lil precious Kyra....it's the best feeling ever..macam B sayang sangat kat Honey...thank you for this wonderful feeling.. i feel blessed Allah sent you to me...You make my life complete especially there's Kyra in our life :) my dream come true...i am so thankful though :)

I'm very lucky to have such a wonderful husband..

I know Kyra's very lucky to have you as her daddy...she'll be proud of you ;)

B, honey janji...i'll take a good care of Kyra when you are not around...i'll make sure Kyra will always remember her daddy and misses him....every now and then, i'll tell good stories about u..i'll be strong for her so that she'll be strong for you...

B jangan risau...We will always love you...

Kyra...daddy needs us to support his career....

she will,B....trust me....she will...i'll make sure of it...

Maybe..i'll make up a goodnight story about you...so that she will dream of you :)

you will always be in our dream ;)

oh! B..thank you soooo much for the wonderful gift....it's the best gift ...that is..Mariah Kyra Adelya...our daughter...

Our Love...

oh!! i would like to congrats to these great friends of mine...(walaupun dalam sedih my b nak naik kapal..i'm still happy for them)


shy....(dier telah dirisik last Sunday....i'm happy for you, dear :) )

me with shy...

Aisha...yahoo....nak kawin this november..can't wait!!!

aisha yg the middle tuh...

reen...also nak kawin this end of may....

reen yang belah kiri :)

i'm happy for all of u...

Thank you for your Love...and support...

"life's greatest happiness is
to be convinced we are loved"

Victor Hugo, Les Miserables,1862

It's a Love Day!!!

Its 12.21am....but im excited walaupun dah terlambat :P "HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY,B"........hehehe!!! I'm happy...so so so happy...he just called me using satellite fon..muahx!! still risau about me and the baby...told u..i'm not sensitive anymore....i'm OKAY now :) he called me to remind me not to go out tomorrow...he will call me tomorrow from philipine...hahaha!! dah bagi hint tu x nak bagi wife dier kuar...

Nope..he didn't call me to wish "Happy Valentine's Day"...NOOOOO!!! He called me to say..."How are you and the baby?"....."I love you soooo much"...."Just want to hear your voice".... :) yups...for him it's everyday love celebration..everyday is special to us...and i like!!!

Semua orang celebrate Valentine's day....but not me and my second sister (i call her adik)...why?? hehehe...it's a long distance relationship....Me...my husband belayar.....Adik...her fiance works at Dubai...so, we layan ler our small lil sister, Wani...who wants to surprise her BF. Pagi-pagi lagi dah pergi ke Bangsar...go to Party Balloon shop....nak beli nice big Valentine's balloon for her bf....and then makan-makan...and then buat eyebrow threading there...huhuh!!! i can see lots of couple manja-manja today ;)

My lil sis,Wani celebrates her valentine's tinggal
akak-akak dier kat umah :P

I'm happy with my life walaupun selalu kena tinggal...apa yang penting..i know he loves me...he cares about me and he thinks about me all the time...that's what i want from him.bukan one day...u show your love to him/her...lepas tu gaduh.....ok balik..then gaduh...i don't want one day love...i want a lifetime love....thats what i receive from him...i can always feel his love deep inside my heart...eventhough he's not here with me :) I'll love you until the day after forever...Honey janji, B...

I don't know why...i always feel you by myside...if Honey rindu jek B...I pray to God hope you can call me..talk to me...suddenly....B called..macam tadi( it's like u feel what i feel)...Thanks B....I just love talking to you...with Kyra inside my tummy..i need you more...i can feel she's excited when u called me ;)

lagi satu...banyak lagi kiter kena get ready for Kyra,B....tak sabar B balik next month...kiter gi shopping for stroller...for baby carriage....for pampers...apa lagi eh? byk lagi ler sayang...nanti Honey buat list eh? Honey dah buat kerja honey....shopping for baby clothes...now, its ur job....Baru fair and square rite? 2 months je lagi B...I'm excited to see our lil Kyra...jgn jeles if Honey lupakan B biler Kyra ada :P


yups!! im smiling now....happily thinking of you and Kyra ;) thanks B for the wonderful feelings u give me...for me..everyday...is a love day!!!

Can't wait to hear your voice tomorrow :)

P/S: Happy Love Day to B..my family and friends!!! A day without your love is a day without life :)

Me and Kyra at SunMed

Just came back from my medical check up with Dr Noor Aini Kassim Ali , my Gynaechologist at Sunway Medical Centre...I went there alone. sepatutnya Tok mama ikut...tapi sebab hal-hal tertentu yang tak dapat dielakkan, Hanin gi sorang-sorang....Bising jugakler En Farshid :P Tapi thanks sayang...Thank you soooooooo much...teman Honey gi hospital...walaupun B teman thru telefon...heheheh!! Selama 3 hours Honey kat hospital....selama tuler B asik call...dier lak yang lebih-lebih excited mcm ler dier ada kat situ...Honey tau B risau Honey gi sorang-sorang...but i'm a big girl,B....TRUST ME :) ada ke patut B tanya....

Hubby : Ada orang tengok u?

Me : B..................im pregnant...perut nak terkeluar....sapa nak tengok Honey?

Hubby : takdeler...just asking...err...Honey pakai baju apa?

Me : Hah?? jeles ler tu....B, im 24 hours on the fon with you...takde sapa ler nak ngorat me...Im fat...remember???

Hubby : just asking..heheh!



huhu! nasib baik B called...if not Honey mesti sesat sorang-sorang kat sana...yups!! masa time mula-mula hanin masuk that hospital....it was under renovation..nie hampir-hampir 80% nak siap...getting bigger and nicer...tempat parking pun ok....macam Sunway Pyramid.. dah under satu company...

Sunway Medical Centre

The clinic pun getting bigger...takdeler nampak crowded sangat...semua dah lain ler....and Kak Emma(Dr's PA) cakap bilik wad pun makin OK....Im impress..hehehhe!! best ler Kyra nanti....Kan mommy and daddy ckp...we will give you the best...Ramai tanya Hanin...why SunMed not SJMC? heheh! dua-dua sama jek...just SJMC too crowded...parking susah..tak larat ler hanin nak gi sorang-sorang....and leh ler sapa-sapa lepas melawat Hanin kat hospital SunMed gi shopping kat Sunway Pyramid :P

Alhamdulillah...Hanin puas hati biler jumpa doctor....Kyra dah tujuh bulan lebih...Biler scan pun, Kyra asik pusing sana-sini...tumbuk sana-sini...suka main kaki...Doktor kata...ada banyak space inside my tummy..so, Kyra seronok main dalam perut..heee!! mommy happy...daddy pun happy (sibuk jek daddy walaupun dalam fon)..Today, mommy kena injection..huhu! sakit...tapi untuk baby mommy..takpe....mommy strong...( nie pun tangan rasa kebas-kebas )...Dr pun ada tanya nak masuk kelas utk get ready nak beranak nanti tak?hmm...macam best!! tengokler dulu dr...discuss dulu with my hubby..dah ler bini dier sorang-sorang...yang bestnya!! my B bagi..next visit that is on 23rd february (skang Hanin kena visit Dr every 2 weeks)...nak tanya dr..when is the class?? at least Hanin belajar ler skit-skit.


After jumpa Doctor...Hanin happy sangat-sangat....Yang penting Kyra sihat and happy dalam perut Hanin...oh!! Dr suh beli aerobic socks utk kaki hanin yang asik sakit-sakit nie..yang letak kat betis tuh...hehehe!! nanti nak cari...takdeler asik sakit kaki nanti.

Lepas my appointment, I went to Summit nak makan...nak gi sunway pyramid, besar sangat...malas nak jalan jauh-jauh.sepatutnya nak makan sushi...tiba-tiba teringin makan kat Johnny's steamboat lak...hmmm...walaupun hanin alone...takdeler rasa alone sangat...my hubby teman thru telefon..sampai ler abis line...sian dier...risau honey sorang-sorang eh?? B...Honey ada Kyra..so, Honey takdeler rasa alone ;)

Last msg from B:

Drive carefully...takut takde line..if ada..will try to contact you.miss u a lot, my dearest wife..Kyra do take care of mommy,be good, manjakan her...so happy kyra is active, thats good, jgn stress...Thanks dear 4 all great moments, still remember everything about sayang, that show our true love to each other, nothing will separate us, love u and kyra..muahs!!

InsyaAllah B, Allah akan lindungi perhubungan kita...

*smiling* ok B....Honey tunggu fon dari B....Honey and Kyra janji kitorang tak noti-noti...kitorang baik jek biler daddy takde...we are counting days for you to come back...Love you lots!! U r always in our heart no matter how far you are..

Huhh! im tired..need to rest..nak tidur jap..semalam layan B dalam telefon...sampai kul 4 pagi :P memang kiter x reti save bill telefon, kan,sayang?..at least B teman Honey..biler Honey tak boleh tidur...I'm happy dapat berborak macam-macam with you...its like you are here with me...hope honey takdeler emo-emo sangat...


P/S: Mommy harap...biler Kyra dah besar nanti...marah-marah kat mommy and daddy...you will read this blog..Biar Kyra tau how much mommy and daddy love you and want the best for you (and your sisters/brothers).....

Happy Birthday Mama and B!!!!

Today is 4th February....yay!! My hubby ada kat Bintulu...heheheh!! Happy..happy sangat...walaupun emo :P Ada jek line, dalam kul 10.30am, En Farshid called his wife..."Do you miss me sgt2? i received berpuluh-puluh msg from u?bising handphone B.." heheheh...tu message biler honey emo sayang...takde sapa nak layan emo Honey...mama and ayah kat Johor...adik and wani kerja (malam jek diorang ada...if tak dating and kuar ngan kawan)..Kak Wassini sibuk ngan kucing...tok mama lak sibuk ngan geng gossip dier...I'm BORED!!! and Miss You sangat-sangat...I'm happy dapat berborak with you more than 1 and half hour...heee...nasib baik B ada kerja klu tak more than that ler...Kayaler maxis lagi...

B jahat....Honey nak kuar gi Mcdonald pun tak leh...yelah!! Honey duduk diam-diam jek kat rumah..tunggu B call and message..kena call delivery ler lagi...hmm....hari tu dah makan fillet o fish...now nak ayam goreng McD lak..yum..yum....hmmm..Kyra dah lompat-lompat dalam perut...excited lak dier!!

Semua dah control Honey..you, mama, tok mama, ayah...semualer...tak bagi Honey kuar :( takpelah at least you ada line layan emo Honey :P

This February..memang important dates for me....Birthday mama (7th February) and your Birthday (21st February)....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!...for mama dah beli dah hadiah...and maybe this Friday nak gi Johor, celebrate birthday mama..heheh!! For u....ok, Honey tunggu B balik eh? celebrate ngan Kyra...thats what B nak kan??

Happy Birthday utk orang-orang yang honey sayang...U and Mama

lagi 2 bulan sayang.....2 orang yang paling penting nak muncul dalam my life...YOU and KYRA...can't wait!!! B balik sempat lagi shopping barang-barang baby ;) ( honey doakan B balik...if tak Honey mengamuk kat Ofis..heheh!!) itupun if mama tak terexcited nak beli...macam-macam dah plan ngan mama..

Tomorrow Honey ada medical check up with Doctor kat Sunway Medical Centre...tak sabar nak tengok Kyra buat apa...Honey janji Honey tak gi sorang-sorang...tok mama dah janji nak bawa Honey..


To Kyra:

Kyra, can you feel the love i have for you while you are so small and living in the dark and quiet world inside my body? your daddy and I want everything to be perfect for u...mommy can't wait to hold you in my arms in just 2 months. i love you and daddy loves you....I can tell you are growing...I feel your movements now..Your movements always bring me so much joy! and i hope you are well and comfortable...i love the way you kicking and punching my tummy...Do kick and punch always...At least mommy knows you are happy inside my tummy.Eventhough i have back aches and a lil bit nausea..i always think about you...Now mommy easily cry so often over so little thing happened to me...Sometimes mommy feel very lonely...But mommy must be strong for u and daddy...Kyra, i want you to be a caring person and good heart.I want you to value education and make your way in the world.But most important, Always remember mommy and daddy and promise you will always keep in touch with us no matter how far away from home the world takes you.We will always pray the best for you....Love you always..*crying (mommy emo lagi)*


huhu! sian semua orang layan emo honey...McD lambat pun Honey bising-bising kat B..heheh!! patutler semua orang suh Honey duduk umah :P takpe...today and tomorrow..Honey layan phone calls from you, B....

Nak pujuk B....Honey ingat nak gi Salon rambut...nak wat rambut..nak colour-colour skit ke..nak wat facial..hmmmm...nak shopping skit...entahler...teringin nak buat semua tu sebelum kyra lahir..heheheh!! kenan baby kot....klu B x bagi...takpelah :(

My big legs :P

heee!! thanks sayang...for calling me...(walaupun B lebih banyak cakap pasal Kyra...Honey redha..huh! Am i jealous of her?? :P)...you called me around 10.45pm walaupun B kata nak call Honey kul 12midnite (using satellite fon)....ooooo...nak check honey buat apa yeh?? Pandai B....Tengok...honey baik jek duduk umah...(walaupun ada plan lain b4 this... ;) )

After cakap-cakap with B for almost 2 hours lebih (itupun ada org nak guna fon kapal)...Honey letak jek fon.....tiba-tiba...

"Arghhhhhh!!!" kaki sakit......macam tertarik.....jerit-jerit ler panggil adik and wani...diorg dtg ngan minyak panas....urut-urutler kaki hanin...sambil mengutuk kakiku yg dah besar nie...cis!! dalam buat baik tu sempat lagi korg eh?

Adik:
eee...wani...kaki k.nin nie..klu kiter masak...sedap nie....k.dik nampak mcm chicken chop...



wani:
tuler....uish!! byk lemak nie...best...best....

huhuhu!! hanin tak boleh buat serang balas....kaki sakit sangat-sangat....sedih :( tauler k.nin gemuk....(Kyra lak tendang-tendang....huh! mcm seronok lak eh?? aunty erin ngan aunty wani kutuk mommy...i can feel u laughing inside my tummy)...

Hanin meluahkan perasaan at my hubby ler thru messages...huhuh! dier pun bantai ketawa...sedih!!! takpe..lepas hanin abis pantang jek...gi slimming world....hanin akan show off to the world...biler hanin dah slim ;)

sambil diorang urut-urut tu..hanin tertido :P sebenarnya best biler diorg main-main ngan kaki hanin..heheh!!

entah kenapa...kul 5am..kaki hanin sakit lagi....my sis suh my maid urutkan....because diorg nak bersiap gi kerja...huhuhu!! (actually xdeler urut sgt...just usap-usap kaki)...

entah kenapa...my hubby called me pagi-pagi buta..."Still sakit kaki lagi,mommy??"

"yes daddy....dah kurang dah skit....maybe kyra active sangat kot..heheh!! mcm mommy main kejar-kejar dengan dier..."



"hehehe!! biarler dier active...dier happy tu daddy dier call..."

eee...perasan...

After cakap sekejap....my hubby gave me satu msg..that is actually not for me...

This text is for Kyra (Kyra takes care of mommy...mommy nie degil....Suka sangat jalan-jalan...do keep in touch with her, makes her feel secure, comfort, then tell her good thoughts, so mommy will love u...I love u...oh! and mommy too..nanti dier jeles lak..heheheh)

ish!! daddy nie x faham-faham lak...mommy bosan...daddy salah suh mommy x kerja..heeee!! tapi takpe asalkan daddy and kyra happy...

*im smiling* thanks sayang....ughh!! my legs hurt...sementara tak boleh tidur...bacalah my chicken soup....nak sambung emo....

In your eyes....

After i've read Chicken Soup For the Mother & Daughter Soul page 217 on the topic 'I am My mother'....I'm worried!!!!! I admit that my mom was the greatest mom to me and my sisters...I just hope that i can be as good (or as great) as my mom to my future kids...(especially Kyra). No matter how busy she is with her work...eventhough it's hard for me to see her (since childhood till now)...she will always showered me with love and affection (eventhough i'm not her lil' daughter anymore but gonna be a mom soon)...

Yes...I miss my mom (my ayah and my hubby of course...x tau lak nape jiwang kat mama..maybe baca this book kot!!) When i looked through my childhood pictures...i just miss her...I loved to look at the pictures especially my mom holding the newborn me, wearing baju sejuk with ayah, tok mama and pakcik beside her..Wow!! that was 27 years ago...when she was still studying at Ohio University, U.S.A....(my mom gave birth to me when she was still 23 years old, taking her degree course and ayah 25 years old...They are married before the went to U.S.A..huhuh! tok ayah strict...suruh mama kawin dulu before pergi U.S)...

Once I asked my mom.." mama, hanin punya uri mama tanam kat mana?"

my mom smiled sheepishly at me and said.." mama tanam bawah pokok apple..." heh! patutler muka hanin bulat mcm apple :P


When i look through the other pictures, mama mandikan hanin eventhough mama busy ada class...mama reading me story books (oh!! now, i know why i love to read books)...mama bring me jalan-jalan...Nope, my mom is very special...my mom don't cook for me(tok ayah manjakan mama..dier pun ada maid jaga dier...so, hanin tak salahkan mama)...but she is very special in her own way...She is a working mom...eventhough dari kecik my maid takes care of me and my sisters...she has her own way to show her love to us...she makes sure she has time for us...*sigh..sedih laks...*


Thanks mama...for everything...i hope u are here for me when i give birth to your first granddaughter..(and of course with my beloved hubby and ayah..and the whole family)...
I just hope i am like you mama..I vowed to myself to take a good care of you and ayah. Hanin janji...will always be a good daughter to you and ayah.. a good wife to Farshid and a good mom to your future grandchildren...mama jangan risau...hanin akan usahakan semoga cita-cita hanin tercapai...thanks for your support....

This is a lil poem to you....(Hanin curik from chicken soup book :) )

(This is a poem that I wanted to share with you. I got it from a book that I have been reading called Chicken Soup for the Mother and Daughter Soul. For those of you that have daughter's this is a really good book and I strongly recommend it but make sure you break out some tissues first because some of the stories in it make you wanna cry or bring up memories of your own that make you cry.)

In Your Eyes

In your eyes, Mom,

I have always been the prettiest,

The smartest, the funniest

The one with the potential

To do anything

In your eyes,

My failures are but

Practice for success

My weaknesses

But strengths in

the making

My mistakes

But an opportunity to learn

In your eyes,

I am the strongest

And the softest,

I am the shoulder

The world can cry on

And the rock

It can lean on

In your eyes,

I am the most creative

And artistic

My every stick figure

The Mona Lisa

My every clay figure

David

In your eyes,

I am the most loved and loving

Everyone's best friend

The perfect daughter

The perfect mother

The perfect wife

A beautiful person to know

And when I see myself

Reflected in your eyes

I see someone

Ten times the person I'll ever be---

I see you.

By: Melissa Peek

My mom...happy on my wedding day..still a gorgeous mom...

P/S: Thanks mama for being there for me...for supporting me...Love you so much!! orang lain susah nak support hanin berhenti kerja..but mama faham...mama doakanler semoga cita-cita hanin tercapai eh? You are the greatest,mama...