A Part of Me

Hanin menangis biler baca one story in this chicken soup book...entahler...tiba-tiba hanin teringat kat "someone"...To "someone"...here is a poem for you yg hanin amik from the chicken soup book...

A Part Of Me

As I sit and remember
When you were still a part of me
I try to forget...
Your life was never meant to be.
You were given a life, a soul, a name
But now things will never be the same.
You were mine to give life to
Though only for a while
Things had changed...
I will never see your smile.
Yet my love for you
Will never disappear
Though your voice, your laugh,
I will never get to hear.
You will always be my baby
Though I've never seen your face.
Not a thing in this world
Can ever take your place.

I know you won't get over it but life must go on...It was meant to be or it was the best (remember what Dr. Hamid arshat told us?)...I know Allah has a better plan for you in future.Your baby is in a better place now (i know he will be in heaven and he will say to you "Mommy please don't cry.... when I fall it doesn't hurt, there are no tears in heaven.")..Now you will have an angel in heaven :) Cry when you need because i know your tears are helping you grieve..Don't feel guilty you laughed today...there is no particular ways you 'should' feel or things you 'should' do.there are no rules about how grieving should go...do take care...and always remember...you have lots of friends out there...they will always be with you. they'll listen to you and laughed with you...that is the power of support...I just wish I knew the perfect thing to say to make you feel better but I know there is none. This is so unfair and I am just so so sorry.

"Friendship improves happiness and abates misery, by the doubling of our joy and the dividing of our grief"- Albert Camus..

p/s: to Along..u r really such a great friend and sister to her...

My big legs :P

heee!! thanks sayang...for calling me...(walaupun B lebih banyak cakap pasal Kyra...Honey redha..huh! Am i jealous of her?? :P)...you called me around 10.45pm walaupun B kata nak call Honey kul 12midnite (using satellite fon)....ooooo...nak check honey buat apa yeh?? Pandai B....Tengok...honey baik jek duduk umah...(walaupun ada plan lain b4 this... ;) )

After cakap-cakap with B for almost 2 hours lebih (itupun ada org nak guna fon kapal)...Honey letak jek fon.....tiba-tiba...

"Arghhhhhh!!!" kaki sakit......macam tertarik.....jerit-jerit ler panggil adik and wani...diorg dtg ngan minyak panas....urut-urutler kaki hanin...sambil mengutuk kakiku yg dah besar nie...cis!! dalam buat baik tu sempat lagi korg eh?

Adik:
eee...wani...kaki k.nin nie..klu kiter masak...sedap nie....k.dik nampak mcm chicken chop...



wani:
tuler....uish!! byk lemak nie...best...best....

huhuhu!! hanin tak boleh buat serang balas....kaki sakit sangat-sangat....sedih :( tauler k.nin gemuk....(Kyra lak tendang-tendang....huh! mcm seronok lak eh?? aunty erin ngan aunty wani kutuk mommy...i can feel u laughing inside my tummy)...

Hanin meluahkan perasaan at my hubby ler thru messages...huhuh! dier pun bantai ketawa...sedih!!! takpe..lepas hanin abis pantang jek...gi slimming world....hanin akan show off to the world...biler hanin dah slim ;)

sambil diorang urut-urut tu..hanin tertido :P sebenarnya best biler diorg main-main ngan kaki hanin..heheh!!

entah kenapa...kul 5am..kaki hanin sakit lagi....my sis suh my maid urutkan....because diorg nak bersiap gi kerja...huhuhu!! (actually xdeler urut sgt...just usap-usap kaki)...

entah kenapa...my hubby called me pagi-pagi buta..."Still sakit kaki lagi,mommy??"

"yes daddy....dah kurang dah skit....maybe kyra active sangat kot..heheh!! mcm mommy main kejar-kejar dengan dier..."



"hehehe!! biarler dier active...dier happy tu daddy dier call..."

eee...perasan...

After cakap sekejap....my hubby gave me satu msg..that is actually not for me...

This text is for Kyra (Kyra takes care of mommy...mommy nie degil....Suka sangat jalan-jalan...do keep in touch with her, makes her feel secure, comfort, then tell her good thoughts, so mommy will love u...I love u...oh! and mommy too..nanti dier jeles lak..heheheh)

ish!! daddy nie x faham-faham lak...mommy bosan...daddy salah suh mommy x kerja..heeee!! tapi takpe asalkan daddy and kyra happy...

*im smiling* thanks sayang....ughh!! my legs hurt...sementara tak boleh tidur...bacalah my chicken soup....nak sambung emo....