Can't wait....

Ha! Ha! Ha! Love that pic.....thanks ecah.....Ecah amik biler Hanin tgh pegang baby nie kat open house Dina Padi....yups...that's the preggy me...Hanin dah naik berat badan dah..im fat!! im 75.5kg....Huhuhu!!! Tapi my hubby selalu cakap...."xpe sayang....you are not fat....you are just pregnant...."

hmmm..pandai dier pujuk....tapi jeles gak tengok org yang kurus-kurus...takpe..nasib baik Hanin tinggi..so, tak nampak sangat hanin dah gemuk :P

No matter what!! I'm proud of my body....yups....i'm happy with it...biarler hanin gemuk..asalkan my baby sihat :) Tapi ada yang kata perut tak nampak lagi...ada yang kata Hanin gemuk...Ada yang kata tembam tapi body ok lagi....entahler....

Farshid nak our baby chubby..heheheh!!! Tengokler nanti....dier ikut chubby mommy dier ke or daddy dier..hahahah!! can't wait...YUPS!! IM SOOOO EXCITED....

Tak sabar tgk muka baby Hanin nanti....next month Hanin dah boleh buat 3D scan...heheheh!!

Kalau ada line jek...my hubby will call me...selalu pesan...."mommy, take a good care of yourself and the baby tau...Daddy is not there for you....Nanti you dah gi buat 3D scan....hantar CD eh?? Daddy nak tengok muka baby kiter"..He's always the same loving and caring husband eventhough dier jauh kat tengah laut...(YA! Allah...rindunya kat my hubby :( )

Apa yang penting sekarang...Hanin nak jaga betul-betul baby hanin sampai dier lahir...Biar daddy dier sambut dier and azankan dier biler daddy dier balik...can't wait for that moment :) x sabar tunggu bulan April 2009....

My Hubby the marine engineer

Dah pukul 1.41am.....damn.....I can't sleep...Biasaler..just 2 days he left me for work..(kerja tau...bukan enjoy..) Baby dalam tummy pun dah meragam..hehehe!! U miss your daddy eh? Yelah...daddy dier ler malam-malam akan usap perut mommy and cakap-cakap with baby dalam tummy..Sigh!!! miss those time sayang....(Mommy..please be strong for your baby).

Every now and then, i will always talk to my baby sambil usap-usap perut..."Baby, Daddy gi kerja....U must understand his work style...he's a seafarer...selalu takde lama-lama...We must support him...." I just want my baby to understand his daddy work style...Nanti takdeler biler dier dah besar merajuk suh daddy dier berenti kerja..Nope!!! i don't want that....

No matter what, i will always support my hubby no matter what he does...He's happy with his work...dier kata semua free...hahaha!! klu kerja darat nanti....food nak kena bayar...tol...minyak keta...parking lot....bla! bla! bla!..like my dad told me...."kerja darat..gaji rm10k pun x cukup.."Betul cakap ayah....he and mama the best advisor...biasaler..orang ada pengalaman...Ayah dah lama kerja bank....Tak boleh tipu dier pasal duit...hahahah!! Mama HR senior vice precident...so, if my hubby kata jek nak tukar kerja..dier akan bagi macam-macam nasihat suruh bersabar...and she will tell him the reason why?? Alhamdulillah..nasihat mama betul (Now, farshid dah pass second class..harap-harap cita-cita dier tercapai nak jadi chief engineer before the age of 30)...Ayah pun sama..if nak beli keta ke...or rumah....he will give us nasihat...macam rumah..okay tak rumah tu..pemaju dier nak bangkrap ke tak..hehehe!! seronok dengar ayah membebel...

My B plak....dah five years dier kerja as marine engineer at MISC....He loves his job sooo much!! I'm happy for him :) he always ask me "Honey....honey ok tak B kerja kapal???" of course sayang..i'm ok..Hanin dah biasa sebab mama and ayah pun busy kerja..so, B x payah risau eh??I won't ask u to stop..mama dah bagi brainwash kat honey....she told me you got a good job...tak payah nak berenti...kerja darat tak selamat....if they nak buang you....they will....gaji sentiasa tak cukup atas darat...then you must pay income tax...banyak akan menganggur biler ekonomi teruk...contohnya like 1997 (orang kata 2009 next year...ekonomi teruk...entahler)..so, she said that i should be thankful you have a good job...Mama selalu interview banyak orang..so, dier kata you are so lucky...to have a good job and a good pay...Lagipun B permanent staff...klu darat, you kerja contract jek.

B, Honey memang rindu B :(

Tapi Honey tak boleh layan mengada-ngada honey rite? B kerja for our future and our baby....Honey akan sentiasa sokong B...I will always pray you berjaya dalam hidup you..I do love you...You will always be in my heart...

lagipun B nak kumpul duit for our future home, future MPV, anak kiter nak masuk private school, universiti...and anak kiter nak kawin..Honey akan sentiasa disisi B..Honey janji...

B, You are the greatest husband in the whole wide world...always make me happy...B jangan risau...i'll try my best to control my emotion just for you..Honey nak B happy kerja...tak mau risau-risau pasal honey...

Sigh!! miss you and love you..do work hard sayang....and remember me always...

eee...sakitnya belakang..kan best B ada....lapar lak..hmm....nak order Mc donald x?

Pusing Kanan..Pusing Kiri..

I miss my hubby....sampai Hanin tak boleh tido semalam.....entah ler...is it the baby or me? selalunya hanin tak macam ni....i'm ok if dier pergi belayar...i will always support him no matter what he does....Maybe i felt lonely semalam....selalunya pukul 1.00-3.00am....Hanin akan dapat my morning sickness...sakit belakang, muntah-muntah, pening kepala, demam, sakit perut...ngan macam-macam lagi...sigh!! miss him soooo much!! he's the one yang akan melayan my perangai mengada-ngada...dier akan urut belakang...hug me from the back...bawa gi makan...and my favourite, he will kiss my tummy and talked to our baby inside the tummy...dier akan cakap to our baby..."Baby..daddy loves you soooooo much...Nanti Daddy nak pergi kerja, takes care of mommy....jangan bagi mommy sakit....and please be strong for us..." I miss the way he talked to my tummy if i felt sick....*crying....*



sigh!! i'm crying again....Hanin kena pujuk diri Hanin and the baby to be strong..."Baby,now..it's just the two of us....we must support daddy...biar dier happy kerja...tak mau sedih-sedih...we need to be strong for him..."



Hanin tak boleh emotional..must take care of my baby and my kesihatan...Hanin dah janji ngan hubby Hanin..."Honey...jaga baby for me....don't cry...u must be strong for me and the baby..this is what we want..."



Yes!!! This is what we want.. kan sayang?? our baby inside my tummy...We are sooo happy when the doctor told me i'm pregnant 5 weeks...Hanin betul-betul terkejut....sampai Hanin tak cakap apa-apa..kenapa???



Sebelum Kawin lagi Hanin dah pesan kat hubby Hanin...."B, maybe kiter susah dapat baby....sebab Honey ada banyak operation...." Hanin ada 3 operation...2 on my kidney (i was born with one kidney ) and one kat ovary...tapi dier tak pernah buat Hanin rasa down....he always tell me...."InsyaAllah....If Allah nak bagi..dier akan bagi...no matter what..i will always love you" Thank you Allah for granting our wish....and thank you sayang for being there for me. you are the greatest husband in the whole wide world..



2 minggu after our wedding reception...my hubby naik kapal...Hanin akan berusaha sementara dier takde....Hanin jumpa 3 orang pakar....if orang tu cakap tu..Hanin buat...Macam minum air apa entah...pakai pad herbal....macam-macam lagilah....just to make sure i'm okay...tak salah berusahakan? Lagipun Hanin nak naik kapal...spend time with him atas kapal...Hanin always trust in myself....InsyaAllah maybe dapat rezeki atas kapalkan?



27th May 2008...i joined him onboard....2 weeks Hanin manja-manja with him...Tapi Hanin takde rezeki atas kapal...entahler...satu malam Jumaat...i had this one weird dream...Hanin mimpi Hanin dapat baby...i was holding the baby....Hanin terjaga je dari tidur...Hanin menangis....it was soooo real....My hubby hug me(as always..) and said "shhhh...jangan menangis....satu hari honey...insyaAllah kiter akan dapat baby...Trust Allah...kiter jangan give up...) Okay.....i know Allah is there for us...we will never give up...



Balik je dari kapal..my hubby hadiahkan me percutian to Bali....just to release my tension...we went to bali on 4th of July...i'm having sooooo much fun there....Hanin betul-betul tak tension kat sana....One day...our tourist guide bawa us to this one place kat Uluwatu...dier macam ada satu kolam kat sana..suddenly..ada pakcik nie cakap at me.."Nak..cuba pegang air tu...selalunya perempuan yang pegang air tu..dapat anak..." (cuba tengok gambar atas)...really??Hanin macam tak percaya...Hanin pun pegang untuk suka-suka nak amik gambar...but in my heart, i really pray to Allah....I trust Allah more...





we spent time in Bali for 3 days...I'm sooo happy...thanks sayang...dalam sebulan lepas Hanin balik dari bali....Hanin rasa tak sedap badan....Tapi Hanin buat tak tau...sebab before this Hanin selalu mengharap....tak datang period jek, Hanin check..tapi semuanya negative...Hanin selalu menangis...farshid always pujuk me...mama pun pujuk kata jangan mengharap sangat... Hanin teman Farshid gi oral test for second class pun (alhamdulillah..he pass his test)..Hanin masih rasa tak sihat and demam-demam...sampai one day...while Farshid was attending kursus kat Melaka (for second class)...tok mama paksa Hanin pergi klinik for check up...I was so shocked when the doktor told me i'm 5 weeks pregnant...Hanin betul-betul tergamam....sampai Hanin jumpa 3 doktor....hahahah!! sebab macam tak percaya cita-cita hanin tercapai...Thank You Allah...I told Farshid this good news on the phone...my hubby happy sangat-sangat....Hanin tau dier menangis..dier tak nak mengaku :)



Dier balik jek dari Melaka..Hanin gi Sunway Medical Centre...I was admitted for 3 days...just to make sure me and the baby okay...He's always there for me..taking care of me at the hospital...The doctor told me..my kidney okay...takde apa-apa masalah and i can proceed with my pregnancy...my baby is a very healthy baby...



Now, i'm a happy four months pregnant mom..hehehe!! Hanin asik sakit-sakit..tapi Baby hanin sihat...i'm soooo happy to see my baby active inside my tummy...Eventhough my hubby is not here with me....Hanin akan jaga baby ni dalam perut betul-betul...I know Allah is there for us...so, i must be strong...



crying again (tears of happiness) Thank You Sooooo Much Allah! (banyak kali dah hanin cakap nie) for everything....i am soooo happy with my life.. (especially im gonna be a mom next year..)



"B...kerja kuat-kuat tau....I will always pray that u come back to me safely...baby and mommy akan tunggu daddy balik..Love u soooo much!!! ".... :)


P/S: 2 Months after pregnant..Hanin mimpi lagi...A name for our baby...heheheh!! secret!

why we love each other

Hanin:why i chose him?
1) i know he’s the one for me….when i met him on 22nd May 2006,my heart felt that he was my dream man…which i knew i’m gonna spend the rest of my life with….
2) he is so caring…loveable,hugable,sweet person….always being there for me when i need him…
3) he is romantic….always pamper me….hug me when i needed a person to comfort me….write romantic letters when he is away….it really cheer up my day after reading it…
4) he is not like other man…he is matured…always think about our future…work hard for our future…like to spend time with me….
5) he is my soulmate…when i first set my eyes on him…he could always take care of me….no matter what…he will always stand by my side…
6) he is well educated….with so many ideas and knowledge…
7) my family love him for what he is….they are very supportive and have done a lot for us….thanks everyone…

Farshid:Why I chose her?…..
1) i felt in love with her after we met for the first time…just had that special feelings…that make me envy her for the rest of my life…my dear honey….
2) she is very kind…loyal….caring….always being there for me when i’m down….she fulfills my needs….
3) she is beautiful….her beauty bring the light out of me…she knows how to dress up…to make me fall in love with her again….she is gorgeous
4) she is very friendly…knows everything about me….make me feels so comfortable when i’m around her….
5) everytime when i’m with her….feel so kinky…hehe….aarrrggghhh…thats why we are married….
6) she is so manja….like to pamper her…like how the way she reacts around me…
7) can’t wait to have babies with her…because she is going to be wonderful mother….i have faith in her…

About us

Sigh.....xde yg special about us pun....im bored and lonely and miss my hubby sooooooo much...(I must be strong for u and our baby..i janji sayang) today....28th October 2008....at 11.30am...i hantar my hubby to KLIA...kena kerja..biasaler org kerja kapal...termenangis lah jugak...maybe penangan baby kot...teremotional lebih.. :) my hubby dah pesan "Honey...jgn sedih2...sian our baby.."

Ok sayang....will be strong for u. i janji.....lagipun next year ada org baru dlm hidup kiter...u balik2 jek terus u jadi daddy and i jadi mommy....can't wait....ntahler....either gal or boy yang kuar..apa2 pun yang penting my baby sihat....Thank U Allah for everything....apa yang Hanin wish...alhamdulillah semua tercapai..A good, loving and caring husband (thats u sayang...), our lil baby( walaupun hanin was born with one kidney and pernah buat operation cyst ovary..doktor kata hanin susah lahir tapi Allah maha Berkuasa...)...and lovely life....

Thanks reen, ecah, huda and to all my friends out there for being there for me....you gals the greatest.... :)

Pagi-pagi lagi reen dah msg....thanks reen.....biler bayar hutang kat bank pun Ecah call..."Hah!! nangis tak?" she asked me....Dina pun ada mention me in her blog "Tak mau sedih-sedih..." hahahah!! thanks korang....of course ler menangis....tapi i'm okay...hanin tau my hubby gi belayar for a good reason....lagipun dier kena kerja for our future and our baby....no matter what sayang.....i will always support u :)

at least Farshid x risau biler dier tinggal hanin sorang-sorang....(i still miss u B!!! honey janji will always talk good things about u to our baby...oh!! mama suh potong rambut biler u balik...heheheh!!)

Takpe sayang...12th November nanti....biler you dry dock kat Pasir Gudang i gi melawat you....for the whole three weeks..nasib baik mama dah kerja kat johor..yay!!! can't wait to see you...and mesti perut i dah besar biler jumpa you :P

"B, honey nak buat 3D scan eh??? nak tengok our baby sihat tak and ikut muka sapa..if not honey tak leh tido malam asik teringat jek..."

Opps....my hp dah berbunyi..

okler nak gi....my hubby call..Yay!! tata...