Thinking of u....

dah pukul 12.30am...still honey tak bleh tido,B.....kyra tendang-tendang honey...and i miss u soooo much...especially biler baca your messages...

msg 1:
"Honey, will always love u...think so much about u...b semangat because i have such a wonderful wife...can't wait for our daughter..."


msg 2:
"Honey,B rindu sgt kat u....tgh standby kat ccr...really miss u...Kyra comel sgt..like how she is acting in your tummy...hehehe....follow daddy dier...muahx!"


msg 3:
"of course i care about both of u...be the best and will never forget about responsibility, to give love and care...know honey will always support b...be by my side..muahx!! do wait for my calls..love talking to u...do think of me all the time.."


huhu!! banyak lagiler msg b..sampai takde line...thanks sayang for all those sweet messages..when i miss u..honey akan baca..i know Kyra pun rindu B!! tapi honey akan ajar Kyra to be a supportive daughter....sokong kerjaya B...Honey dah janji ngan B....I think todaykan B nak sampai Japan?? Tak sabar nak cakap dengan B...if not today...tomorrow...No matter what day...honey akan tunggu calls from B...I just love talking with you sambil bebel-bebel dekat B yang Honey dah gemuk...

I still remember biler B 3G Honey masa kat Bintulu...Honey tunjuk kat B, the chubby me...you just laughed...and said...
"Honey...U r still my cute wife...jangan risau...i sayang you because of you...not because you gemuk or kurus...lagipun you tengah carry our Kyra...U makan je apa yang you rasa nak makan.."

Thanks sayang.....thank you so much!! im crying...oh no!! tamau sedih-sedih....Honey dah janji kat B..Honey nak jadi kuat *senyum paksa*

okler B...Honey tak nak bebel dah...nanti Honey emo...nak sambung baca Chicken soup Honey...muahx!! Love you sooooo much!! (cepatler call sayang....)

P/S: Happy 24th birthday adik (14th january 2009).......Kak hanin janji beli mekap MAC yang adik nak tu...

In your eyes....

After i've read Chicken Soup For the Mother & Daughter Soul page 217 on the topic 'I am My mother'....I'm worried!!!!! I admit that my mom was the greatest mom to me and my sisters...I just hope that i can be as good (or as great) as my mom to my future kids...(especially Kyra). No matter how busy she is with her work...eventhough it's hard for me to see her (since childhood till now)...she will always showered me with love and affection (eventhough i'm not her lil' daughter anymore but gonna be a mom soon)...

Yes...I miss my mom (my ayah and my hubby of course...x tau lak nape jiwang kat mama..maybe baca this book kot!!) When i looked through my childhood pictures...i just miss her...I loved to look at the pictures especially my mom holding the newborn me, wearing baju sejuk with ayah, tok mama and pakcik beside her..Wow!! that was 27 years ago...when she was still studying at Ohio University, U.S.A....(my mom gave birth to me when she was still 23 years old, taking her degree course and ayah 25 years old...They are married before the went to U.S.A..huhuh! tok ayah strict...suruh mama kawin dulu before pergi U.S)...

Once I asked my mom.." mama, hanin punya uri mama tanam kat mana?"

my mom smiled sheepishly at me and said.." mama tanam bawah pokok apple..." heh! patutler muka hanin bulat mcm apple :P


When i look through the other pictures, mama mandikan hanin eventhough mama busy ada class...mama reading me story books (oh!! now, i know why i love to read books)...mama bring me jalan-jalan...Nope, my mom is very special...my mom don't cook for me(tok ayah manjakan mama..dier pun ada maid jaga dier...so, hanin tak salahkan mama)...but she is very special in her own way...She is a working mom...eventhough dari kecik my maid takes care of me and my sisters...she has her own way to show her love to us...she makes sure she has time for us...*sigh..sedih laks...*


Thanks mama...for everything...i hope u are here for me when i give birth to your first granddaughter..(and of course with my beloved hubby and ayah..and the whole family)...
I just hope i am like you mama..I vowed to myself to take a good care of you and ayah. Hanin janji...will always be a good daughter to you and ayah.. a good wife to Farshid and a good mom to your future grandchildren...mama jangan risau...hanin akan usahakan semoga cita-cita hanin tercapai...thanks for your support....

This is a lil poem to you....(Hanin curik from chicken soup book :) )

(This is a poem that I wanted to share with you. I got it from a book that I have been reading called Chicken Soup for the Mother and Daughter Soul. For those of you that have daughter's this is a really good book and I strongly recommend it but make sure you break out some tissues first because some of the stories in it make you wanna cry or bring up memories of your own that make you cry.)

In Your Eyes

In your eyes, Mom,

I have always been the prettiest,

The smartest, the funniest

The one with the potential

To do anything

In your eyes,

My failures are but

Practice for success

My weaknesses

But strengths in

the making

My mistakes

But an opportunity to learn

In your eyes,

I am the strongest

And the softest,

I am the shoulder

The world can cry on

And the rock

It can lean on

In your eyes,

I am the most creative

And artistic

My every stick figure

The Mona Lisa

My every clay figure

David

In your eyes,

I am the most loved and loving

Everyone's best friend

The perfect daughter

The perfect mother

The perfect wife

A beautiful person to know

And when I see myself

Reflected in your eyes

I see someone

Ten times the person I'll ever be---

I see you.

By: Melissa Peek

My mom...happy on my wedding day..still a gorgeous mom...

P/S: Thanks mama for being there for me...for supporting me...Love you so much!! orang lain susah nak support hanin berhenti kerja..but mama faham...mama doakanler semoga cita-cita hanin tercapai eh? You are the greatest,mama...

my weekend with kyra :)

Heee...Kyra....mommy bosannnnn......daddy dah takde line...tendang-tendangler mommy kyra...at least mommy ckp...mommy tau kyra dengar :)

Nothing special happened to me these past few days...tp busy as usual...last Saturday, one of my best friend ( my pengapit) masuk hospital...because of demam denggi...i received msg from her bf, Agos (bakal hubby...congrats....this year diorg nak kawin...can't wait to bring my kyra...) around 10.30am...told me that aisha kena admitted kat Gleaneagles hospital....so, i rushed to the hospital to visit her....itupun after i mintak kebenaran from my hubby (nasib baik ada line, he's at bintulu)..kena pujuk-pujuk rayu gak ler....dier risau i drive alone during my pregnacy time...especially nak gi to Ampang area...huhuhu!!

After melawat Aisha, balik rumah cepat-cepat...ada hal with my family lak...takde hal pun....just pergi survey barang baby at the curve and Garden Midvalley...tengok stroller, tempat tidur baby, baby car seat, tempat mandi baby, baby carriage..semualer brg baby....my parents nak bandingkan harga KL with Singapore...( Singapore lagi cantik dier punya design..but Malaysia cheaper price...) Lagipun my parents nak gi UK/Korea bulan 3 nie....huhuhu!! jeles B....Honey dah tak leh fly...dah sarat :( Honey just pesan tengokkan barang kyra kat sana... After survey-survey kat Robinson, Mothercare and First few years....adaler gak barang yg minat....tapi i know..B mesti nak honey tunggu B balik baru boleh beli...B jealous...hehehehe!! sebab honey dapat shopping baju untuk Kyra cute-cute :P

After dah penat round and have dinner, baru balik.....tapi balik i can't rest gak...kena tolong my sis, survey tempat nak kawin next year...hahaha!! memang next year lambat lagi...tapi nak kena book tempat awal-awal macam hanin dulu...semua hotel fully book nasib baik concorde, shah alam ada tempat walaupun last minute book...Hanin dapat tempat because ada orang tak bayar deposit...cari dalam internet dulu....suka gak ler ngan Equatorial hotel, Bangi....Cyberview Lodge Resort, cyberjaya....Sheraton, Subang Jaya....Palace of Golden Horses....and banyak lagi ler hotel yang cantik-cantik....(hanin lak excited...sebab biler nak book hotel yang hanin nak dah penuh...so, balas dendam kat adik..hehehe)..after discussed with mama...mama kata cari hotel yang boleh masuk banyak orang...kenaler gak hanin ngan adik cari dewan gak...our choices are...Dewan Perdana Felda and PWTC...

Now hanin tak buat apa-apa....kenaler tolong adik for her wedding nanti...kena tengok photographer, make-up artist, decoration...bla...bla...bla...dulu my sis dah tolong...now, it's my turn :)

Yesterday lak( Sunday)...teman mama pergi jumpa best friend dier, Auntie Husna...tengok kindergarten and childcare yang Auntie Husna baru buka at Kota Kemuning...huhu!! best sangat-sangat berborak with Auntie Husna....My dream memang nak bukak tadika...so, mama suruh belajar from auntie Husna....Auntie ada gak ajak hanin jadi cikgu kat sana(sambil-sambil tu belajar about the business)...mama kata tengok dulu after hanin give birth...tak sabar.....seronok sangat-sangat....I love kids....lagipun Kyra leh ikut mommy gi kerja :P Tapi Hanin nak sambung study dulu dalam Montessori....baru hanin fikir semua nie....and yang paling penting..hanin dapat membesarkan Kyra...I want to be by her side..


oh!! lupa lak nak congrats to my another best friend, shy (shahida azad jamaludin) because dapat baca Buletin Utama at TV3....at last your dream comes true...Alhamdulillah...

Yups...thats me, Aisha(yg pakai tudung) my pengapit and shy,mc for my special day...sorry gambar lama....sejak pregnant-pregnant nie...malas nak amik gambar...heheheh!! rasa gemuk...

P/S: Alhamdulillah..i'm happy with my wedding reception at concorde, shah alam...walaupun dapat last minute...The hotel did a great job and i love it!

Pesanan from daddy

Yay!!! at last after hanin round-round at Subang Parade MPH, i found books yg hanin nak sangat-sangat....no.....not Twilight....heheheh!! no....not danielle steel or Judith macnaught :P...Buku-buku yang hanin cari..Chicken Soup for the Father and Daughter Soul...Chicken Soup for the Parent's Soul ... and Chicken Soup for the Mother and Daughter soul....

I'm happy....and Ughhh!! i feel old...heheheh!! I don't know why i like to read these books..maybe i need motivation...because the stories are about Loving, Learning and Parenting and to warm the heart and Honor the relationship.

Mungkin Hanin risau whether i will become a good mommy to our Kyra...so, please help me Allah...I'm just too excited for our lil' Kyra and hope i'm not a strict mom...heheheh!!! Oh! me and my hubby always talk about our lil' kyra...Tau tak Kyra....Daddy hope that he's your childhood hero...Mommy pastikan he is ;) Daddy always harap Kyra will mature from perfect little angel into a lil bit rebellious teen ( mommy tau ada time-time mesti anak mommy akan memberontak) to accomplished woman who are dad's pride and joy :)


Mommy betul-betul tak sabar Kyra nak kuar this April....oh!! and of course tak sabar daddy balik....Mommy and daddy will pray the best for you....Mommy just want to say "Thanks Kyra....Kyra buat mommy kuat biler daddy takde :) "



P/S: Kyra, Daddy pesan " wait for daddy to come back this end of march or early april...I can't wait to hold you in my arms....do love you so much..you're gonna be my little angel who will always takes care of mommy when i'm not around"


P/S/S: thankx for calling us, daddy....Daddy jgn risau...mommy and kyra ok!! mommy janji...we will always miss u...

My motivation...

I'm crying again...oh!! not because of him...(eh!! i do miss him :) ) it's because of this CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE SOUL Love stories book...I love these Chicken Soup series....Thanks to these books, they motivate me to become a stronger and better person. These books transport you to the moments in your life that were filled with devotion and unconditional love.


When i miss my hubby...i will read these Chicken Soup books...especially the story of the love shared between father and daughter when he returns from oversea...(Hanin akan pastikan Kyra reads these books to accept that her father is always not there with us but will always be deep inside our heart...This book will also remind her of the everlasting love between friends, family, and parents and children). This story is about a California National Guard Army, who was being deployed to Iraq(huhu! hanin tak sokong tau...just sedih je baca cerita nie)...terpaksa berpisah with his 3 months old daughter and his wife for few years....how his daughter waited for him to come back...how his wife and his daughter miss him so much...They only keep in touch through lots of letters...itu pun sampai ke tak...because the guy tengah sibuk berperang...After i have read this story, i am thankful me and Kyra gets to see my hubby...(kerja 4 bulan cuti 2 bulan..insyaAllah) and gets to keep in touch with him ( biler ada line and sampai port)...

Alhamdulillah, my husband is just Encik Farshid, the marine engineer :) not the U.S army after being tortured at Iraq, baru boleh balik...

We will always be there for you B...B jangan risau....I will make sure Kyra understand that her daddy will always love her no matter how far he is...You will always be her daddy!! She will know that her daddy will always pray for her....(kyra tendang-tendang mommy eh? sokong mommy cakap eh?Thanks kyra...Daddy needs that from us). Like William Shakespeare said, " Love asks me no questions, and gives me endless support."

Banyak lagi orang susah dari Hanin....Banyak lagi kisah sedih orang dari Hanin....Banyak orang tak dapat jumpa husband bukan hanya berbulan-bulan...tetapi bertahun-tahun....sebab pergi berperang....I am thankful sayang....I know you will always love me and kyra(thats important).and will always come back to us....We will always wait for you with open arms :) Can't wait for the time i run back into your arms....

The sweetest comfort of all, i know you really really cared about us....We love you so much B...


P/S: thank u so much to my family and friends who are always there for me every time i need them.

our Kyra

Hari nie berdebar2.....kul 7 pagi dah bangun.. :) excited + takut.....nak tgk my baby dlm perut using 3D/4D scan...i was suppose to do it on 9th january....tp yesterday my Dr's PA called...tukar date to today....

my hubby mcm tau-tau jek wife dier nak gi tgk anak dier....pagi2 buta dah call....

Hubby: hi mommy...how are u? im at philipine now....ada line jap....really miss u, sayang...how's
my kyra? miss her too....

me : hi sayang...me and kyra ok....we miss you so much!! guess what?? today im going to do
that 3D/4D scan...heheheh....u nie mcm tau2 jek....call i...

Hubby: really??heheheh...excited to see our baby....please do send the cd....i dah bagi my
address right??


My hubby kata line kejap...tp dekat 1/2 an hour le berborak2 on the fon....plus 1/2 an hour lagi main message2...heheheh!! dier lak yang terlebih excited i'm going to do that scan.....after manja2 with my hubby....i bersiap nak gi hospital with my maid..sian my sis....x dapat hantar dier kerja kat Astro.....walaupun ada driving license....still takut nak drive....takpe wani....esok kak hanin hantar k!!

sepatutnya my appointment pukul 8.30am...heheheh! tp ter stuck lak kat dlm jam :P sampai lewat 15 minutes.heheheh! sampai-sampai jek terus masuk bilik doktor....doctor tu ada ler sound2 skit...kata kena kurus...kena banyak buat exercise.... :P hanin dengar jek....because im more excited to see my kyra....kak wassini pun sama....sebab lepas nie, she's going to help me to takes care of our kyra...


dekat dua jam ler buat scan.....kacau my kyra bangun tido...heheheh! marah dier..sampai tumbuk-tumbuk mommy dier....then, pandai lak dier pujuk-pujuk me by kissing my tummy..heheheh!! maybe dier kata..."sorry mommy..." My Doctor pun ketawa tengok my kyra kissing my tummy then smiling at us....then, dier hisap jari dier.....so cute....x sabar nak peluk kyra ;) my baby active dalam perut...i'm happy that she's ok...

me : Doktor..how's kyra?

Doc : after everything were visualised....u jgn risau...semua appear to be normal....oh!
there's her right and left kidney...jantung semua ok...brain pun....oh! she's a girl...

me : thanks doctor....


yups! the 3D nak tgk my kyra's face...the 4D nak tengok dalam badan kyra....dier sihat jek....Alhamdulillah....

Balik-balik je rumah....my hubby called again...to remind me to send the CD...heheh!! he's so happy when i told him everything about our kyra...hanin pun lega sangat-sangat biler dapat tahu our baby's condition....malam nie boleh tido dengan lena sambil tengok pics and video kyra... :)

ps: hmmm...hidung kyra banyak ikut daddy dier..mancung :P