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Monday, April 12, 2010

bila dah emo....


My hubby dah pergi kerja (Lunch hour 12.00pm-1pm)...sigh
...bosanlah balik!! Just now for lunch, chief cook masak lauk masak lemak ayam,ikan masak kicap,sayur campur and keropok...fruits lak kiwi..hmm..entah napa me and hubby malas lak nak makan nasi...so...as usual..hubby suh wat our favourite sanwich...Peanutbutter,Kaya and cheese toasted sandwich...nyum!!nyum....memang sedap dan menggemukkan..hihi!




our fav.



1 hour pun...sempat gak me and hubby manja-manja...haa...tu best kot bila kerja kapal...kalau wife naik kapal...boleh breakfast,lunch,makan petang and dinner ngan hubby...turun bawah je...tak yah gi jauh-jauh...makan ok..ada masakkan kampung..ada western...semua free...kalau kerja pun leh tengok-tengok dier...itu pun kalau dier masuk bilik nak gi toilet..hahaha!!



Time nilah still tanya hubby..."honey balik ke tak?" sebab dengar-dengar cerita...kapal masuk port this 14th April...ada orang nak balik and ada orang nak naik kapal..."nope..nama honey tak kuar dalam list...honey teman B..." boleh tak B senyum...hmm..nama honey tak kuar? mesti B cakap kat ofis nak honey ikut B gi Kuwait eh? "B....berapa lama?"...B just geleng-geleng.."Don't know...wont tell you..nanti Honey mengamuk kat B..InsyaAllah,B leh balik dengan honey the next trip..."



Redha jelah...nak marah pun tak boleh...maybe dah tertulis (cewah! ayat..) hanin spend more time dengan my hubby...seronoklah dier...balik-balik je bilik..terus call my mom *my hubby tengah tido jap..so, curi-curi cakap phone*...tanya pasal kyra....mommy rindu kyra sangat-sangat....and then hanin cakap kat mama hanin..kata hanin maybe boleh balik this may...and i asked for her advise...is it ok?? am i a bad mom? macam-macam hanin tanya..i need her advise...


"Hanin..jangan fikir sangat,k....kyra ok....jangan fikir bukan-bukan...you and farshid already give the best to her..sapa kata hanin tak ingat kyra? you always call and asked her..you always ask for her pictures...you make sure semua barang cukup..farshid needs you...just be there for him...dulu pun..masa time mama study kat U.S..lepas mama lahirkan hanin kat sana...tok mama bawa hanin balik KL...mama kerja pun..hanin still duduk ngan tok mama...hanin betul-betul duduk ngan mama..bila hanin dah 17 years old...mama kerja...ayah kerja..but we try our best to be there for you...that 17 years...hanin ada duduk ngan mama kejap..but most of the time...hanin duduk ngan tok mama...but..ada tak hanin anggap mama jahat? ada tak hanin lupa mama? no rite? kyra will always think of you and farshid...kyra faham...jangan risau..we're always there for her..to make her remember u and farshid..."



*Crying* thanks mama...thanks sooooo much
.....mama buat hanin happy...yes...you're the best mom in the world...sampai ada orang cakap hanin anak mak..hahah! im proud of it...kalau hanin cakap hanin jarang jumpa mama (mama ni workaholic)...mesti orang tak percaya..because im very close to her and of course tok mama (dengan semua hanin rapatlah...)..Yes! hanin bersyukur sangat-sangat i have a very loving and happy family...they're always there for me...hanin pernah tanya mama..."mama,hanin ni menyusahkan mama ke?"


"nobody can say that except me...no...hanin tak pernah menyusahkan mama....jangan cakap macam tu..one day, hanin akan buat kat kyra macam tu...and hanin takkan rasa kyra menyusahkan hanin.."



ok mama...hanin janji...i'll give the best to her :) mommy janji,kyra...daddy pun sama....mommy akan layan kyra sebaik mama tok layan mommy..*but i know i will not be as good as her*



after hanin letak phone, hanin tak sedar lak farshid dengar apa hanin cakap with mama...hanin ingatkan dier tido...i hugged him..i cried..."sorry sayang...its just
that i miss kyra...."



farshid hugged me back and pujuk..."shhhh!! dah..dah....if you cry..i'll cry too...i miss her too...B dengar honey cakap dengan mama...."



im blushing " B dengar apa?"



he kissed my forehead..." Thanks sayang....for being t
here for me and kyra....orang tak nampak how much you sacrifice for both of us..you're a great wife to me and a great mom to kyra....takde sapa leh judge honey as a bad mom except us...honey always make sure me and kyra ok...you make us happy...thanks sayang...I promise you, will love you always..i'll work harder for our future...Honey tak pernah menyusahkan B...you're my wife...B yang kena cari duit for you and kyra...ok..jangan fikir sangat..fikir bila nak balik ni nak buat apa....kyra's belated birthday party..our vacation....honey fikir...nanti B balik kerja..kiter discuss lagi..."



im smiling..thanks B..yups...B balik kerja nanti kiter discuss apa nak buat bila balik nanti eh? hihi! everyday discuss pasal nie..but B tetap layan honey....of course banyak pasal our precious kyra....miss you sooooo much kyra..yes...betul cakap mama and B...kalau hanin videocalled, mesti kyra senyum-senyum kat hanin....from the smile...i know i've done a good job as a mom...from the smile....it's like you're telling me "thank you,mommy..you're a great mom..kyra sayang mommy"...



ok hanin..tamo fikir bukan-bukan..tulah..bila duduk sorang-sorang dalam bilik...mesti nak fikir macam-macam....




I love you,B


I love you,kyra


I love my family


I love my friends


I love y'all...




thanks for giving me support and strength...



^______________________________^




Im happy...happy sangat-sangat..



Only God knows how much i love and miss you,kyra....take care my lil cili padi...tamo naughty-naughty ;)


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oklah..nak tengok gambarlah...these pictures selalu buat hanin happy...






kyra happily swimming
ngan tok ayah
at the hyatt's pool..





with beloved Nekma..
kyra buat muka seposen

bila nekma pakaikan kasut...





tok...sedaplah fish ni..nak lagi leh?





with mama tok at Awana Kijal...
"Thanks mama for
being there for us..."





muka sedih B nak gi kerja...
me...baru lepas kena pujuk...
thanks sayang...





Love you,B...





thanks B ...
B selalu buat honey happy....





P/S: wani....cepatlah hantar kyra pictures lagi....


P/S: hope B dapat turun..bila masuk port nie..nak beli barang skit...hihi!




13 comments:

Ena Mazly said...

everything will be fine dear...jgn sesedih kay...

HaninFarshid said...

kak ena,

thanks...tulah...kalau farshid gi kerja..kadang2 hanin sedih gak..rindu kyra...i'll try to be strong...

Marsha~ said...

ishh..sayu nye baca ni... u mmg mommy yang paling kuat sekali... betul ckp ur hubby.. i sgt setuju dgn dia.. jgn risau sgtlah, mcm u cakap family u sentiasa ada melayan kyra.. nasib u baik sbb ada family yg sgt understanding... :)

Shida Radzak said...

rupanya hanin masih ats kapal..ptutlah dulu akk penah sms tp hanin tak reply..baru arini akk bkk blog..ni pon akk lam pantang ,baru trgerak nak bkk blog ..apaon hope hanin enjoy..

w|cKa` said...

xpe.. time kecik2 ni la nak sailing lama2 pon.. nnt dah ada adik susah la k.nin nak ikut lagi..

enjoy ur time ngan hubby k!! kyra sure paham mommy & daddy dia.. lagipon dia byk org nak melayan.. sure dia xboring..

Azizah Abd Jamal said...

dear,

Me rasa emotional lak espcially the question part, g pernah ask tht to them..i know how you feel hanin. Be strong dear! you're among the best tht i know ;))

Cheer up hanin! take care will ctc you soon.

ZuRaNaI said...

kak hanin,,
namo sedey2 ok..

~Pn.Ilah~ said...

Hi hanin, sabarlah ilah paham keadaan hanin skrg. ilah pon pernah mengalaminya cuma situasinye berbeza.. Percayalah nenek akan menjaga cucu sebaiknya, sometimes lbh baik dr kita jaga..So skrg ni hanin just enjoy ur trip coz farshid lbh memerlukan hanin.. Don't cry2 k.. :)

Ummi said...

kak nin..sape yg kate u bad mom tuh??cett..x sayang molot tul..

HaninFarshid said...

marsha,

thanks marsha :) yups....bila farshid gi kerja..hanin lonely...fikir macam-macam..yups!! i should be thankful i've got family yg understanding..thanks again marsha..


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shida

congrats kak :) huhu!! hanin tak dapat pun sms akak...thanks..memang susah nak enjoy bila rindu kyra..

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izan

thanks soooooo much izan....tulah...kecik2 dier tak kisah...bila besar mesti susah k.nin nak ikut...kalau tambah lagi anak...memang k.nin tak ikut...hihi!

HaninFarshid said...

GG,

thanks...thanks for ur support GG..take care..

nanti i balik kiter jumpa,k...

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zura

ok zura...akak try tamo sedih2... :)

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ilah

thanks soooooooo much ilah.ok...tamo cry2... :)

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umi

takdelah...tengah emo tu...rindu kyra sangat2...macam2 k.nin fikir :)takut im not the best for her...

thanks

Anita, Mummy Adzryl said...

alahai... sedih baca entry ni.. hang in there, babe! take care tau.. mwah!

farah said...

kak nin~
terharunye bace....
kak nin dun wory eh?
u did a GREAT job!
seriusly!
tamao pk bukan2 kay?
*hugs*
take care sis...