Happy dapat Makan :)

Thank you soooo much,B...thanks for everything ...

thanks for being there for me :) B jangan risau...honey dah ok....after i had a good nite sleep and after eating my favourite ice cream waffle at A&W...heheheh...

Honey janji Honey takmo cry dah....sorry susahkan B...dengar honey luahkan perasaan sedih honey kat B even though you're tired with your work...B pun macam tau tau je....honey sedih and i need to talk to you...B call...yups! sayang...you're a very good listener....honey rasa ok sangat-sangat lepas cakap dengan B...

it's just that...honey rasa sedih sangat...honey termarah our lil girl.....tertinggi suara kat our lil girl....honey tak sengaja.....kalau siapa kenal honey...memang tau...honey bukan jenis yang marah-marah.....honey tertinggi suara bila kyra sengaja shake her bliss....and then tumpahkan Bliss tu kat lantai.....lagi honey cakap NO...lagi kyra buat siap boleh ketawa lagi....sigh! anak mommy sorang nie....maybe dier ingat dier tengah buat lawak kot....tu yang honey terjerit kuat skit....and say..."No,kyra!!! mommy said ...NO!" kyra tergamam biler dengar honey jerit....mata bulat dier pandang honey....nope....she didn't cry....dier just terdiam...

wani yang terkejut biler dengar suara honey jerit...datang tengok kenapa honey jerit...honey tergamam gak....i dont know what to do....i asked wani to watch our lil girl....and i just went inside our room....tutup pintu...and cried...

kyra sayang...if one day...biler kyra besar...kyra baca nie....mommy wants to say....I love you sooooooooo much......mommy sorry kalau mommy termarah kyra...or buat kyra terasa...mommy harap..kyra faham why i did that to you....always remember....you will always be mommy and daddy's lil girl....you are a wonderful person....and we think the world of you....

yups..honey menangis je...honey nak call B...tapi honey takut....honey takut honey tak tunaikan permintaan B supaya jaga kyra dengan baik...honey takut honey tak jalankan tangungjawab honey sebagai mommy yang baik...macam-macam honey fikir sayang...

and then...i heard small knocks from outside.....and i can hear our lil girl's small and cute voice..."Memmi...Memmi..." honey cepat-cepat bukak pintu....wani tengah dukung our lil girl....."nah k.nin....kyra nak k.nin"...she gave kyra to me...

B tau tak....kyra macam faham-faham je honey rasa sedih dan rasa bersalah sangat kat dier....she hug and kissed me...and then smile at me...terus honey cair....kyra siap geleng-geleng kepala dier...and gerakkan her small finger *yang macam no..no..tu..* as if she's telling me.."No...mommy...don't cry..." :) and then she hug me again macam nak cakap sorry dekat honey...

and then i put her on the bed....baring-baring with her....and boral-borak with her....hihi! entah apa-apalah kyra cakap dekat mommy.....comel sangat dier bebel-bebel dekat honey in her baby language....certain words je honey faham :) and then B called...yups! B selalu call biler honey nak cakap sangat dengan B...B macam tau-tau je...

B dengar honey luahkan perasaan honey....honey lega sangat-sangat....tak tau napa...B call je..honey rasa sedih balik....rasa bersalah sangat-sangat......tu yang honey menangis....kyra tengok je honey sedih-sedih kat B...good girl je dier.....dier tak kacau pun honey cakap phone dengan B...dier faham mommy rindu daddy....mommy nak manja-manja dengan daddy....mommy needs to talk to daddy...honey happy biler B cakap.....

"don't worry,sayang....kyra will always love her mommy....i know....tengok....kalau honey masuk toilet pun...kyra menangis nak ikut...honey bangun skit je....kyra cry gak nak follow her mommy...that means she always need her mommy to be there for her....jangan risau....kyra will understand one day kenapa mommy dier marah....because you want to give the best to her...trust me...you're a great mom....B tau...honey emo nie...sebab u miss me me,rite?i miss both of you too.."

thanks B...thank you soooooo much....entah kenapa....lepas nangis-nangis...lepas sesi meluahkan perasaan.....hanin rasa teringin nak makan waffle lak...hahahaha! boleh tak? so, hanin pun mintak ler kebenaran farshid nak gi makan waffle kat A&W....time tu pun dah malam sangat.....alhamdulillah farshid faham...siap usik lagi.."pergilah sayang...B tau...food makes you happy..."hahahah! mana ada...*err....ada ler skit-skit....*so,hanin pun ajakler wani teman me....hanin ingat nak tinggal kyra kat rumah dengan bibik...tapi dier menangis nak ikut...so, bawak lah dier...suka kyra dapat ikut mommy makan waffle :)

farshid memang risau hanin drive gi A&W,subang....yelah...dah malam sangat.....takde laki teman...just me,kyra and my sis...asik call je....hihi! hanin sampai-sampai je A&W...hanin pun orderlah waffle and onion rings...nyum!nyum....for kyra..hanin order nuggets...my sis lak...coney dog...yups! betul cakap B....food makes me happy...kyra pun happy dapat makan...heheheh!!

balik-balik rumah je...hanin tidokan kyra....alhamdulillah kyra senang tido....maybe penat and kenyang sangat...after i kissed her good nite....hanin buat satu lagi activity yang happykan hanin always.....bergayut with my hubby on the fon :)

oppsss...my hubby dah call :) huhu! lepas nie..takleh gayut lama-lama dah..pukul 1pm...kapal nak kuar port....nak berlayar to Japan....takpe,sayang...e-mail ada...sattelite phone pun ada...Kalau ada line kat philipine and japan..B boleh call...honey dah bayar tau kat maxis...hihi! will miss berborak lama-lama with you,sayang....me and kyra love you sooooooo much...take care...B jangan risau...honey tak sedih-sedih je...maybe emo je semalam....betul cakap B..honey rindu B sangat-sangat...tu yang sedih...now,honey dah happy balik :)....

B...have a safe journey :) oh...mama and ayah nak gi Jakarta and vietnam today...nak amik barang-barang kawin adik....honey dah order kat mama suh beli seluar sports,baju and bag laptop for you :) oh! malam nie,tomorrow and this weekend ada open house...honey gi eh? :) thanks...

oklah,B....do enjoy me and kyra's pic at A&W.....happy dapat makan :) hihi!

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kyra macam mommy and daddy :)....
suka makan....

mmm...sedapnya mommy this fries.....

nyum...nyum....

our lil girl makan dengan penuh perasaan :)

Kyra tengah fikirkan daddy dier :)

happynya kyra dapat makan....

me and kyra....
happy dapat makan :)

P/S:I Love You sooooo much,B...Kyra pun sayang daddy dier sangat-sangat...